The funny thing is I always thought no one knew who I was, but since high school a surprising number of times I've run into people from high school who do remember and what not. But I never had any idea who they are. It doesn't make me feel better about anything that happened in high school, but I do find it weird and funny.
That's really bizarre... Maybe we're not as invisible as we'd like to think we are.
I have mixed feelings about highschool. Grades 8 went surprisingly well, I was shy but I was a successful perfectionist at that time. Still clung to my elementary best friend. Grade 9 was pretty good, too. I met an amazing girl and we were best friends from grade 9 to the beginning of this year, before she decided to leave me behind. I don't blame her at all. She made highschool, and overall teenage life, worthwhile. A very understanding person, though I suspect that she was fighting her own AvPD and social anxiety (though I think she's a lot better now.. she has a life, meanwhile I just crumbled without her).
I would just sit there, quietly in my classes... actually focusing on the work so that I simply looked absorbed. I would eat lunch with a group of people I knew somewhat well, but rarely saw outside of school. I was pretty quiet then, too, just kind of sat there... trying to look busy by doing homework as they chatted.... Eventually highschool became a NIGHTMARE. Because eventually the teachers began paying me special attention, after I started ditching half of my classes. When the teachers ask you in front of the class "Sabrina, would you like to take this test in the library?" it does NOT help.... It's sweet and all... but, just, no. And then the school councellor is all on my back like she cares, when really, any adult trying to help me who has a biased opinion about school scares the hell out of me.
I'm in my last year of highschool now, I went from straight A student to straight C-, F because of my perfectionism, procrastination, and absences. All my teachers get on my back, telling me how I'm an A+ student but I'm failing. They don't get it. But now that they're watching me I feel like I can't go back. Teachers scare me. So i'm doing a hospital program where they bring me my work, to my house, but it hasn't started yet. Don't know what's up with that. Technically i'm out of school, because I haven't started yet...?