MikeyC
Well-known member
I hate making threads and I hate talking about myself at such length, but I need to vent.
I feel like my life is at a real crossroads.
It's no coincidence that these thoughts coincide with the issue with Fiona, but I think it's more than that. Fiona's rejection has not been easy to handle, but I do think that I'll get there in time, no matter how difficult it is now. The problem is that I've invested a lot of time and a lot of heart and a LOT of driving in this for no reward. I feel really let down. I still can't hate her, though.
Besides that, I have been thinking about going to do psychology at uni. Now I'm wondering if that's the right option. It's the only thing I've decided has been good enough to study, but I doubt myself - not just on the course, but my ability to complete the course with my mental issues, and if I'm going to enjoy it. I worry that I will be making the wrong decision.
Right now I have no skills for better employment. At the age of 27 I am more unlikely to be hired than a 16 year old, even if I did have some qualifications. I do need to change that...somehow.
I am shit with money. I also need to learn how to be better.
People ignore me. I don't get it. There's got to be something weird about my personality that makes this happen.
I've gained weight. I'm not obese or anything but I have definitely put on the kilos. Thanks to depression for making this happen.
I just don't know what to do. I don't know what the next step is. I feel confused and that makes me depressed - a feeling I've not been able to fully shake for weeks.
I don't know what kind of advice I need. I guess just getting this out and hoping I can help others in a roundabout way will satisfy me. Thanks for reading.
I feel like my life is at a real crossroads.
It's no coincidence that these thoughts coincide with the issue with Fiona, but I think it's more than that. Fiona's rejection has not been easy to handle, but I do think that I'll get there in time, no matter how difficult it is now. The problem is that I've invested a lot of time and a lot of heart and a LOT of driving in this for no reward. I feel really let down. I still can't hate her, though.
Besides that, I have been thinking about going to do psychology at uni. Now I'm wondering if that's the right option. It's the only thing I've decided has been good enough to study, but I doubt myself - not just on the course, but my ability to complete the course with my mental issues, and if I'm going to enjoy it. I worry that I will be making the wrong decision.
Right now I have no skills for better employment. At the age of 27 I am more unlikely to be hired than a 16 year old, even if I did have some qualifications. I do need to change that...somehow.
I am shit with money. I also need to learn how to be better.
People ignore me. I don't get it. There's got to be something weird about my personality that makes this happen.
I've gained weight. I'm not obese or anything but I have definitely put on the kilos. Thanks to depression for making this happen.
I just don't know what to do. I don't know what the next step is. I feel confused and that makes me depressed - a feeling I've not been able to fully shake for weeks.
I don't know what kind of advice I need. I guess just getting this out and hoping I can help others in a roundabout way will satisfy me. Thanks for reading.