I can't find the words to explain to people how it feels to be in my head. To want to be dead every second of the day-- nothing is ever good enough, nothing is even good at all.
I feel like shit.
I just keep picturing you in a kilt with a big, shaggy beard.
^ yeahh.. I grinned a bit. XD
That cheers me up a little!
I want to get away from here. Leave everything and everyone behind and start a new life...
Ah feel like shit. Unlikeable... yadda, yadda, yadda.
Annoyed at masel' fur givin' intae forced social interaction with people ah can't effin' well stand. :kickingmyself: Just one of those days, ah guess...
I felt the same way last night. I find myself avoiding the people I thought that used to be my friends now because they treat me different like I don't even exist.. I can't even put their name with a face anymore because they have become so non existent.
Sorry to hear that. That's never easy. Ah can kinda relate to your situation a little bit - except mine is more to do with certain family members.
Ah've never been one for being social when in a bad mood. Doesnae begin or end well for me. Ugh! Just thinkin' aboot it makes me cringe. It ends the same way people think yer a total idiot.
Insecure in myself and untrusting of everybody...
not sure which came first, the chicken or the egg.
So very sad. My gallbladder is acting up again (biliary colic, without stones) and I don't know what to do. I had it for a year and half and it went away after Christmas... now it is back and I am worried it will be another year before I feel relief again. Horrified at living like this and having all those medical tests again, but this pain is a nightmare.