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Okay, so lately I've been getting even more discouraged with where I am in life. I feel as though I'm moving backward, whereas everyone else is moving forward. I feel as though I've majorly let myself down, because I'm not where I thought I should've been in life at this point. I was the loser in grade school and high school (invisible when I wanted to be someone, but center of attention when I was being made fun of and wanted to hide). I held on to the stupid hope that teachers would preach in the classrooms when it came to popularity...that the popular kids would no longer hold their status later in life, and the nerds/losers/outcasts would become the successful ones. I just wish that they had never said these kinds of things. It gave me a false hope. I've been out of college for a couple years now, but I still don't have a career in my field. I feel as though I've become more dumb, more ugly, and so on. People who I went to school with are getting married, having kids, landing great jobs, so I just feel so behind. I wish I would've realized that when the teachers said those kinds of things that it didn't apply to me. Yes, I was a loser, but I wasn't the super smart kind of nerd. Being the socially awkward, fearful, and ugly kid that I was, I should've figured that I was going to stay that way. Sorry to anyone reading this. I know this post is long. I just need to vent, and I'm wondering if anyone else out there has been going through this kind of let-down.