noonecares86
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I'm 29 and i feel so old and like there is nothing to look forward to. I had a great childhood but i have wasted my life since age 17. I was quiet back at school and i got bullied and i can not get over it. At 17 i started to have really bad social anxiety and other anxieties and have never been happy since. I have really bad anxiety and i hardly do anything i wasted all my 20's. I hardly go out anymore it's so bad. I'm angry at all the suffering i have done all the rejection and i'm really sad. I've tried to get help and tried meds none have worked. I been working really hard past two months to fix myself i've done a lot of exercising and reading self help books taking a class i'm really doing good but i feel so sad and like i'm too old now and i have nothing to look forward to best years are wasted. I still feel inferior thanks to people from school i see how happy they all are they have husbands and families and i'm still suffering for what they did to me. I go out sometimes and when i do i get stared at or given a dirty look like i'm not good enough everyone had a problem with how i look. I'm so done with feeling inferior no matter how hard i work it never changes i never thought i still feel this way all these years later. I've never had a boyfriend i always wanted one but either they rejected me in school or i missed my chance because of how i feel about myself. I feel like even if i had a boyfriend it wouldn't be as good as if iwas younger. I miss the past a lot everything seems sad now i work hard and feel like what's the point. I don't know what to do please anyone have advice i don't want to be missing the past anymore.