Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Aye. That how ah've been feelin', lately. :sad:
How are you feeling?
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Aye. That how ah've been feelin', lately. :sad:
Srijita52
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I feel really really lonely. Its not that I don't have anyone around but I feel like I can't just connect to anyone except on a superficial level. Maybe I'm expecting too much? I don't know, none of my "friends" seem to care about things that are important to me. And I understand its not their fault or mine but damn sometimes I just wish there was someone I could share these things with. I don't know why is this bothering me so much lately. I don't want to push these people way, I care about them. But at the same time, I can't help thinking its all useless.
Srijita52
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I'm sorry spring, I feel you though. You can talk to me if you want anytime.
coyote
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I'm so relieved I could cry. Last night, idiot that I am, I was drinking a cup of chamomile tea right near my computer (luckily without milk or sugar), even sometimes briefly resting the mug on my keyboard. I know, I was basically tempting fate and well... I got a scare. Spilled some on my keyboard and the computer screen went blank and then the whole thing shut off and would not turn on the rest of the night and wouldn't charge. I kept it open and upside down overnight to dry, and got up early this morning hoping against hope it would turn on...
Thank goodness, it did. I just hope there's nothing wrong it in the future because of this. NEVER having liquid within five feet of it ever again
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Uh-huh! That pretty much sums up how ah've been feelin' for awhile now. :sad:
Ach! Ah feel like am goin' mental! Cannae cope wi' all the family arguments goin' on around me - with ah was adopted, tae be honest & am no kiddin' either. :crying: The amount o' shite ye've got tae put up wi' - it's enough tae get section under the f**kin' the Mental Health Act! Dyfunctional families are f**kin' hellish! Ah feel like Benson fae that f**kin' 70s American sitcom Soap - tryin' tae please, and yet the most sensable o' the lot. :kickingmyself: F**k knows how ma mum cope wi' it aw? :idontknow:
Srijita52
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^What's wrong?
I'm sorry you have to put up with all that Graeme. It definietly sounds awful. (((hugs)))
Trishanku
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Well today I went to my best mate's wedding. I usually hate things like weddings, funerals etc, but it actually went well. I handled myself quite confidently, and had no major blushing episodes (I can sometimes go red easily). I even spoke to a few people (which I initiated) who I didn't know. So, the wedding is now over and I'm back home. I should feel happy with how the day went and that it's finally over with...so why do I feel like shit? Since getting home I've spent an hour just lying there mulling over the day's events, and have this strange feeling of emptiness inside of me. I don't know why
After my college days and a few years later all my social life had come to just Weddings, funerals and accidental or surprise meetings. Nothing much happened. Whenever any of my friends called me, I knew! either it was a wedding invite or a news about someone passing away or something like that. I usually give a miss to most of the weddings and with funerals, well one dies socially if he/she does't attend such unavoidable things. because one has to pay respect to the living when someone near and dear one of their's dies. because true social bonding takes places at worst of times, in my belief. I have missed a few funerals too :kickingmyself:
but these days I am not answering the phone, well problem solved. not really, a embarrasing thing happend. I accidentally dialed a friend who I haven't spoken to in about a year or so and I was again like :kickingmyself: and i was like :ironicsmile: and saying hello.
Trishanku
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Same thing with me. Theres no other way, We have to make things different for ourselves. we will!
anomicdeer
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Really trying not to feel horrible.
My son didn't even like bottles because I only breastfed but eventually I got him on bottles. Now he doesn't want a sippy cup. I HAVE to get him off immediately and getting the sippy cups with the nipple seems stupid since that is the reason why he needs to get off the bottle.
My son didn't even like bottles because I only breastfed but eventually I got him on bottles. Now he doesn't want a sippy cup. I HAVE to get him off immediately and getting the sippy cups with the nipple seems stupid since that is the reason why he needs to get off the bottle.
Trishanku
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that my biggest fear too everytime I drive. Guess my Hypervigilance kind of helps or may be not that much I think it does. Once at a expo, had parked our car and there were these big lamp posts and I rammed the rear of my car while backing up and lucky that lampost, a really tall one didnt end up falling on our car.
I think you should get some help for it. especially since your studying these are the curcial days in ones life. it changes ones life. So I hope you get yourself some help so you can focus and complete sucessfully your studies.
If I knew That I could have gotten help back when I was studying I would definitly had done that. But back then I had no idea where to go or who to ask. please see someone about it. Good luck, study well :thumbup:
anomicdeer
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MollyBeGood
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absence makes the heart grow fonder?
MikeyC
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There are people out there that do care about how you feel, and do care about things you find important. You just haven't met them yet, and when you do, you'll realise the connection you can make.
Phoenixx
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Good. I just came back from my uncle's (er, mother's uncle... No idea what relation that is. I don't know family genealogy and her family is seriously confusing.) place. My mom and I have been going there a lot recently, for various reasons, but mostly just to visit. I first met a younger cousin of mine last summer I never knew about and we got along really well. Once again tonight we just talked about video games and laid on the floor watching youtube videos and played some Link's Awakening. I find it amazing how well we click, she's only 15 and I'm 20, but she's pretty mature for her age. We're like one in the same, both very introverted, very shy, get into a lot of the same things, and once we find common ground our shyness is not present and we never shut up. Actually she talks more than I do still, but I'm more of a natural listener anyway. I wish we could hang out more often. Now that I have my license and finally memorized the route to get there, maybe that could happen.
I just came back from my uncle's (er, mother's uncle... No idea what relation that is. I don't know family genealogy and her family is seriously confusing.) place. My mom and I have been going there a lot recently, for various reasons, but mostly just to visit. I first met a younger cousin of mine last summer I never knew about and we got along really well. Once again tonight we just talked about video games and laid on the floor watching youtube videos and played some Link's Awakening. I find it amazing how well we click, she's only 15 and I'm 20, but she's pretty mature for her age. We're like one in the same, both very introverted, very shy, get into a lot of the same things, and once we find common ground our shyness is not present and we never shut up. Actually she talks more than I do still, but I'm more of a natural listener anyway. I wish we could hang out more often. Now that I have my license and finally memorized the route to get there, maybe that could happen.
Trishanku
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Woke up at 3:30 am with very unpleasent thoughts and bitterness. I was very angry about few people and how their words affects me. Like I brood over and over, their sarcasm. At time I feel helpless and my mood was out. I could not go back to sleep. Put the light on and I just sat up till 5:00am.
I remember this exact feeling of bottling up furstration, anger and hurt when i was a kid. Then I'd not talk to anyone I think this made me very unpredictable because I'd become silent all of a sudden and people had no clue why I did so. I'd talk to no one, until my grandmother spoke to me very gently and nicely. Because my mother is kind of like me or vice-versa. I'm in many ways, her photocopy. so much so, I look just like her when she was young and I act like her too these daysh: She is so childish.
Over sensitivity, Little things other would forget and move on. I couldn't do it would remain in my head for years. This negativity aint good, Only if i can pick skills to deal in the face, when people make me feel angry. passive agrresive me I guess. :sad: I so want to be assertive
I remember this exact feeling of bottling up furstration, anger and hurt when i was a kid. Then I'd not talk to anyone I think this made me very unpredictable because I'd become silent all of a sudden and people had no clue why I did so. I'd talk to no one, until my grandmother spoke to me very gently and nicely. Because my mother is kind of like me or vice-versa. I'm in many ways, her photocopy. so much so, I look just like her when she was young and I act like her too these days
h: She is so childish.Over sensitivity, Little things other would forget and move on. I couldn't do it would remain in my head for years. This negativity aint good, Only if i can pick skills to deal in the face, when people make me feel angry. passive agrresive me I guess. :sad: I so want to be assertive
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Phoenixx
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Feeling like I'm stuck in a rut all over again. Actually I don't think this feeling went away from a couple weeks ago, it just was put to the side for a little while. I really need to get myself doing more things. Laziness always prevails and I keep finding myself doing the same things over and over again every single day. I did start a couple projects, but my creativity is at zero right now. No inspiration whatsoever. It kinda sucks. I need to find a way to get inspired again.
*thinks of heading to Home Depot or Lowes to look at the color swatches in the paint section*:thinking:
Edit: Paint section! Not "pain section." Haha I just noticed my typo and found it pretty funny.
*thinks of heading to Home Depot or Lowes to look at the color swatches in the paint section*:thinking:
Edit: Paint section! Not "pain section." Haha I just noticed my typo and found it pretty funny.
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MikeyC
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Remaining busy and having things to do is the best way to get rid of these feelings, but I'm sure you already knew that.
I'll inspire you: for every minute you are lazy, I will kick a puppy. :bigsmile:
Just kidding. Feel better soon, Phoenixx.
Phoenixx
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^
! I think that'd be the fastest way to get me to do something.