How are you feeling?
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this_portrait
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Every morning I wake up is an anxiety attack. Please, for all that is good and holy, do not force me to move in with my parents. I don't want to be in that environment, in that house, with little to no running water, in that depressing town, feeling like a child under my overbearing mother's control. Her bills are NOT becoming my bills.
Please, I'm begging, please please please someone CALL ME BACK ALREADY. FIND ME WORK. I CAN'T ****ING HANDLE IT ANYMORE.
Please, I'm begging, please please please someone CALL ME BACK ALREADY. FIND ME WORK. I CAN'T ****ING HANDLE IT ANYMORE.
Kiwong
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No eye pain, just the rapid appearance of all these floaters. I am very near sighted, I need glasses to drive, apparently it can be more of a problem for short sighted people. Maybe stress and diet could also play a role?
MollyBeGood
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The fact they came on at once with the eye flash of light means I would go to the eye doctor just in case. They can repair a detachment if you catch it in time.
MollyBeGood
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I am starting to wonder without sounding like a crazy person, which is impossible probably but oh well, here goes- if I might be part of another species of human hybrid? This actually brought me comfort recently since maybe I am separated from my real "species". There's no way that these people I am surround by on a day to day basis are of my dna, that is all I gotta say!!
Kiwong
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That can't be good, wanting to punch things. Releasing anger feels good, but maybe go for something softer.
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Kiwong
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Maybe you an evolving human spirit, who realises that the current incarnation of humanity possesses very little humanity. For several years I've imagined that I have the soul of a bird. The idea of leaving all this human complication behind and flying brings me some peace.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
^ Pretty much how I'm feelin' as well. Oh, and quite pessimistic about ma progress so far in recoverin' from ma recent surgery. :sad:
MollyBeGood
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me too. Nothing is secure right down to the second I open my eyes chaos all around. I don't need to wonder why I wish to sleep my life away for very long when all is so unstable for me aswell.
On a happier note are you watching the new season of Vikings? You got me started on that show... it is one of my favorites
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
No happy ataw... Even though ah should be fair chuffed with maself and the progess ah've made in a week. :sad:
Pissed off that ma oldest sister thinks she's doin' go by praising me. Yet, ah just feel like am being lectured and condescended to for not huvin the self-confidence to walk on ma crutches at the moment. Am I not allowed to be afraid of losing my balanced and falling, like? Which is the last thing me or my consultant surgeon want to happen. And what if there's nothing to break my fall? Oh, and whit aboot the wee overlooked fact that... (drumroll): I'm walkin' differently than before!
Also, does the daft bitch no realise that, on account of being both the only male and the yongest sibling, ah dinnae exactly get self-confidence instilled in me from a young age. Naw, ah got anxiety and fear instilled in me at a young age. Because our Mum, like some single mothers, knews nuthin' when it comes to raisin' boys.
Sorry for overly personal rant, there.
Pissed off that ma oldest sister thinks she's doin' go by praising me. Yet, ah just feel like am being lectured and condescended to for not huvin the self-confidence to walk on ma crutches at the moment. Am I not allowed to be afraid of losing my balanced and falling, like? Which is the last thing me or my consultant surgeon want to happen. And what if there's nothing to break my fall? Oh, and whit aboot the wee overlooked fact that... (drumroll): I'm walkin' differently than before!
Also, does the daft bitch no realise that, on account of being both the only male and the yongest sibling, ah dinnae exactly get self-confidence instilled in me from a young age. Naw, ah got anxiety and fear instilled in me at a young age. Because our Mum, like some single mothers, knews nuthin' when it comes to raisin' boys.
Sorry for overly personal rant, there.
Marc7
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Why are you feeling ignored?
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Depressed, but I know it will pass.
this_portrait
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There are those who I wish would go live off the grid in their own little ****ed up community, and then there are those whose mugly faces I would love to take an axe to because they are just that horrible of people.
So much anger and nowhere to put it. No effective way to express it that will leave me satisfied.
So much anger and nowhere to put it. No effective way to express it that will leave me satisfied.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Every since my orthopedic surgery a few months ago, my Mum and oldest sister have basically dictated my recovery, and ignored any sensible suggestion I make in favour of them knowing what's best for me. Since I know bugger all. As well I'm implying I'm lazy when I tell them I'm resting because my knee is sore, due to not sleeping comfortably. Which is true, but they just say I don't want to help myself get better, then pass remarks like that off as "jokes"
I'm "being lazy" when I'm just sitting on the couch, either watching a DVD on my laptop or listening to my iPod. Even though I'm not supposed to walk around the house unsupervised at the moment in case I don't fall and hurt myself.
My Mum seems more interested in watching repeats of her favourite sitcoms and antiques shows than she is in helping me get better.
Also, temporary living downstairs in the living room, my Mum doesnae take kindly to me asking for some peace and quiet. Apparently, asking nicely for some alone time is the same as tellin' somebuddy to f**k off...
GraybeardGhost
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I'm feeling quite unwell, mentally and physically. Tonight would be as good a night as any to die in my sleep.
defiance
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I know the feeling. That's me all the time. I'm still waiting for that peaceful death in my sleep as well.
