I know that feeling, you're a couple weeks behind though? It's still very much achievable. If you let it go now then think of all the work, all that anxiety you fought, all for nothing? Do you have AvPD? You sound a lot like me. I started my A-levels but the social aspect utterly overwhelmed me, I didn't fight it like you have, I ran and I hid and I never went back. Became a recluse pretty much, hid from the world. I've been running and hiding ever since. If it wouldn't hurt anyone then I'd be dead by now. You've got so far and you've got so much talent it's ridiculous. A life spent hiding in fear is a tragic waste. You're still so young and you have what it takes. I know you have x