...the title does say "10 things to do before you die"
Yes, but since i'm a "thinker" not a doer, i tend to view "do" as more what can i think about, or improve in the mental sense.
"more satisfying" sounds very egoist to me
I didn't mean it to. What i mean basically is that by eliminating most of the suffering (if that can be done) by way of dissolving the ego. That means presumably none of the fears, hangups, misbeliefs, worries, etc remain, which would normally have an adverse affect on a person trying to "get out there and live life". I certainly know that if i could eliminate just one of my suffering problems - GAD, a HUGE number of things would suddenly become now possibilities, when before they were out of the question.
"that I think I need to do eventually"...I just don't really understand that. Are you taking steps to change the way you think and act right now?
Right now, after having another mini-crisis & depression, i am for a change DOING stuff (changing things in my house), which usually i cannot, due to my OCPD/GAD/etc. So that's the "doing". The "being" part is that i'm gonna again get right into philosophy/spirituality/etc, as thats where my latest bout of suffering has led me.
Why i say "eventually" is due to the fact that it seems no matter WHAT i do, is always ends up nowhere, and quite often "disaster". So maybe i just never do the "right" things, at the right time?. I couldn't even list my "10 things to do" as i have absolutely no idea what they would be, as i don't know what i want or like to be doing, not in my lifetime, next 5/10/20 years, next year, next month, or even next week. I guess things (my moods & motivations) are still too chaotic/fluid for me to have & keep set goals/targets.