Chilling__Echo
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I absolutely cannot run from this disorder any longer. i thought that i could get by but coming back from my spring break last week (which was hell), things have really come to slap me in the face.
things with my boyfriend are getting tense, he's always always always been there for me even though he doesn't completely understand it. but when i'm stressed, he's stressed. when i'm unhappy, he's unhappy, and i'm not happy with myself. i think if nothing else, the one thing that's followed me these past few years is my unhappiness with myself. it's so essential to everything else! i feel like things i didn't even know were there in my head until now i look inside and i just see a stack of things i've forgotten about over time.
i really need to talk to a proffessional. i think i'm going back on the meds. going and getting a prescription written out for me was no problem after a while but i actually need to talk to someone. i've closed myself off and i trust no one. i can't talk to anyone. i have maybe one friend, but i can't rely on her to take me from my lonliness and i can't rely on my bf to be the one thing there for me for support, that's too much weight for him to bear. i've become so bitter and i need to basically chill out. the last thing i want to do is to sacrifice my relationship just because i can't get my shit together!
all in all i just need to vent and if anyone has any advice on actually talking things out with a counselor/psychologist/psychiatrist, i'd very much appreciate it. in the end i NEED to open up, but i really don't know how.
things with my boyfriend are getting tense, he's always always always been there for me even though he doesn't completely understand it. but when i'm stressed, he's stressed. when i'm unhappy, he's unhappy, and i'm not happy with myself. i think if nothing else, the one thing that's followed me these past few years is my unhappiness with myself. it's so essential to everything else! i feel like things i didn't even know were there in my head until now i look inside and i just see a stack of things i've forgotten about over time.
i really need to talk to a proffessional. i think i'm going back on the meds. going and getting a prescription written out for me was no problem after a while but i actually need to talk to someone. i've closed myself off and i trust no one. i can't talk to anyone. i have maybe one friend, but i can't rely on her to take me from my lonliness and i can't rely on my bf to be the one thing there for me for support, that's too much weight for him to bear. i've become so bitter and i need to basically chill out. the last thing i want to do is to sacrifice my relationship just because i can't get my shit together!
all in all i just need to vent and if anyone has any advice on actually talking things out with a counselor/psychologist/psychiatrist, i'd very much appreciate it. in the end i NEED to open up, but i really don't know how.