Anonymous
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I read a book about aliens about 6 years ago, and ever since, I have had this persistent fear that other people will think I am an alien. I just get this terrible cotton-mouth when I am around people -- I shake, and I blush, and I am just so afraid that they will hate me for being an alien.
I have been in therapy for the past 3 years, and I am on a high dosage of Paxil, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I am even starting to fear my therapist -- that he thinks I am an alien and hates me -- and he is the only person I see outside of my house.
I am usually good most days -- I stay in the house and do a small at-home business from an office in the house. But some days I am so depressed and debilitated that I can hardly get out of the bed at all. I just lie there as my brain spins -- I ruminate about being perceived as an alien. Sometimes I get SO depressed and think about just ending it all (but my mother would be so hurt by that). As you can see, I am really desperate and I can't believe what has happened to me.
So, I just wanted to ask advice from all of you. What should I do to get better? Do any of you have a persistent fear of being perceived as a space alien? Have you ever encountered a person and wondered if they were an alien? How would you feel if someone perceived you as a space alien? Do you think they would hate you?
My therapist says that this fear was constructed in my mind, and that I can, with effort, deconstruct the fear. So, it would be helpful to get your input.
I have been in therapy for the past 3 years, and I am on a high dosage of Paxil, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I am even starting to fear my therapist -- that he thinks I am an alien and hates me -- and he is the only person I see outside of my house.
I am usually good most days -- I stay in the house and do a small at-home business from an office in the house. But some days I am so depressed and debilitated that I can hardly get out of the bed at all. I just lie there as my brain spins -- I ruminate about being perceived as an alien. Sometimes I get SO depressed and think about just ending it all (but my mother would be so hurt by that). As you can see, I am really desperate and I can't believe what has happened to me.
So, I just wanted to ask advice from all of you. What should I do to get better? Do any of you have a persistent fear of being perceived as a space alien? Have you ever encountered a person and wondered if they were an alien? How would you feel if someone perceived you as a space alien? Do you think they would hate you?
My therapist says that this fear was constructed in my mind, and that I can, with effort, deconstruct the fear. So, it would be helpful to get your input.