Hi all,
I don't expect this thread to muster many responses, but just wanted to reflect on my current situation at the university I just transferred to.
I've felt like an outsider in most school settings for the past several years, and feel it once again. I transferred from a community college to this school, which is small and private. I feel like an outsider on different levels, but in different ways than at the other schools. I think many people at this school are very wealthy/privileged, unlike other schools I have attended, and I am here on grants, scholarships, and federal money so that's the first thing. Most of the people have nice clothes and seem like the "preppy" sorts, and I have my old clothes I've been wearing the past few years, lol. I overhear conversations about people who talk about "waiting for money to come" from their parents, that sort of thing. And I am quiet and closed, and most people I see are happy, outgoing, and kind of snotty. I know I may sound judgmental, but this is just how I feel.
I also transferred here and live off campus, so I am basically alienated in that way. I also moved halfway across the country with my husband to sort of please my mother, who eventually wants to move here, so I can't just change schools. Most new events are for freshman. I don't even really want to try and get involved, though I have tried, because I just don't feel open to people. I haven't really found anyone who I have things in common with it seems, and most people my age at the school already have their friends and everything.
Does anyone else feel sad in their isolation, but not quite willing/eager to actually try and get connected? In the past I've found that people simply don't like my personality. I just don't feel the motivation. Also, I don't feel like I want to change. I've gotten so used to being alone in these sorts of situations, that I can't imagine being different. It stresses me out thinking about actually having connections with people, and yet I feel sad being isolated.
I don't expect this thread to muster many responses, but just wanted to reflect on my current situation at the university I just transferred to.
I've felt like an outsider in most school settings for the past several years, and feel it once again. I transferred from a community college to this school, which is small and private. I feel like an outsider on different levels, but in different ways than at the other schools. I think many people at this school are very wealthy/privileged, unlike other schools I have attended, and I am here on grants, scholarships, and federal money so that's the first thing. Most of the people have nice clothes and seem like the "preppy" sorts, and I have my old clothes I've been wearing the past few years, lol. I overhear conversations about people who talk about "waiting for money to come" from their parents, that sort of thing. And I am quiet and closed, and most people I see are happy, outgoing, and kind of snotty. I know I may sound judgmental, but this is just how I feel.
I also transferred here and live off campus, so I am basically alienated in that way. I also moved halfway across the country with my husband to sort of please my mother, who eventually wants to move here, so I can't just change schools. Most new events are for freshman. I don't even really want to try and get involved, though I have tried, because I just don't feel open to people. I haven't really found anyone who I have things in common with it seems, and most people my age at the school already have their friends and everything.
Does anyone else feel sad in their isolation, but not quite willing/eager to actually try and get connected? In the past I've found that people simply don't like my personality. I just don't feel the motivation. Also, I don't feel like I want to change. I've gotten so used to being alone in these sorts of situations, that I can't imagine being different. It stresses me out thinking about actually having connections with people, and yet I feel sad being isolated.