Auburn
Active member
It's almost as if I'm waiting for the punchline. As if a persons compliment towards me is just a ruse to get a reaction out of me or something. If someone gifts me something I always wait for them to take it back and tell me they didn't mean it.
It even includes things like in tests or when I'm asked a simple question. I always think there's a more detailed approach, or it's a trick question trying to catch me out. Because 1+1=2 is just too simple of an answer, right?. Put a difficult question in front of me and I'll answer it perfectly, but anything simple and easy becomes so incredibly impossible.
Following instructions is just the same. I always think there's a step that's been left out or I'm not reading it correctly and will sometimes never complete the task because of this.
I really want this to go away. Thinking everyone is lying or trying to trick me really has it's effects on both me and everyone I interact with. I've tried to pin it down as to why I'm like this and wow have I got a history of backstabbers. The biggest being my mother. If you met her you'd understand, there's no such thing as good intentions with her.
I've already come so far from my past, but evidently it's still having some sour affects on me.
Anybody else experience this? Or how to stop feeling this way? It'd be nice to not feel alone with it.
It even includes things like in tests or when I'm asked a simple question. I always think there's a more detailed approach, or it's a trick question trying to catch me out. Because 1+1=2 is just too simple of an answer, right?. Put a difficult question in front of me and I'll answer it perfectly, but anything simple and easy becomes so incredibly impossible.
Following instructions is just the same. I always think there's a step that's been left out or I'm not reading it correctly and will sometimes never complete the task because of this.
I really want this to go away. Thinking everyone is lying or trying to trick me really has it's effects on both me and everyone I interact with. I've tried to pin it down as to why I'm like this and wow have I got a history of backstabbers. The biggest being my mother. If you met her you'd understand, there's no such thing as good intentions with her.
I've already come so far from my past, but evidently it's still having some sour affects on me.
Anybody else experience this? Or how to stop feeling this way? It'd be nice to not feel alone with it.