LemonKiss
Well-known member
Please. Someone please help me. Being 17 is a rotten age. When I last left a message to you, I felt like I would be happy and positive FOREVER!! Now everything is cold and aching.
I'm not exactly asking for advice, I'd just like to share some things, have some people reply and then feel better.
I do not have anorexia. But I want to have it. I have read countless books on the subject, know of its horrible effects and yet it still seems so glamorus, so life-fixing. I am 5"4" and weigh 110 lb. I think if I was skinnier, everything would be ok. The thing is, when I don't eat, I get high and confident. I stop worrying and everything is at peace. Do you know how beautiful it is? 1, 2, 5 days. You get weak and it's very nice. Your confidence goes up. You can stop thinking about all the horribleness of your life. You can even hope that one night you won't wake up. Bones. Aren't they so pretty? Rib cages especially.
Who else shares this belief? The belief that having a more defined face and a body so small it could fit in a person's arms will make everything better?
This is not a cry for help or attention.
Ok. I lied. It is.
I'm not exactly asking for advice, I'd just like to share some things, have some people reply and then feel better.
I do not have anorexia. But I want to have it. I have read countless books on the subject, know of its horrible effects and yet it still seems so glamorus, so life-fixing. I am 5"4" and weigh 110 lb. I think if I was skinnier, everything would be ok. The thing is, when I don't eat, I get high and confident. I stop worrying and everything is at peace. Do you know how beautiful it is? 1, 2, 5 days. You get weak and it's very nice. Your confidence goes up. You can stop thinking about all the horribleness of your life. You can even hope that one night you won't wake up. Bones. Aren't they so pretty? Rib cages especially.
Who else shares this belief? The belief that having a more defined face and a body so small it could fit in a person's arms will make everything better?
This is not a cry for help or attention.
Ok. I lied. It is.