blueflavors
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have you ever like you're the most unlucky person in the world? maybe not anyone of you but i feel that way.
I have being unlucky all my life
Family? my father abandoned me since my parents are divorced, we didn't talk for years and my relatives they barely know my age and i have a half-sister, the last time i saw her, she was 2 years old and she's 8 years old and i really miss her but i can't do a single shit about it.
Friends? i've never had a good friendship, someone to lean on whenever it became tough to me, all my friendships, i'm the only ended up being hurt despite giving my everything and tryin to keep our relations.
Studies? They gave me a course in a far-away-from-home university and i lived by myself for a whole year, i became more depressed and i had many mental issues yet now when i thought my friend will help me out to move into an university i dreamt of, she chose another friend and i was left out.
Boyfriend? tbh i have one but my social anxiety and my current depression about maybe not be able to go to the university that i dreamt of, makes me want to stay alone all time and cry by myself because at those times.
I found out that many people used me as always, when i actually had decided many times to stop giving trust to anyone but i just idk, only mum is by my side which made me fear if i lost her what i'm going to do? i have no one pratically and i feel like im shattered every day...
I feel like a post-it girl or unwanted guest to everyone, i'm useful but meaningless to them, which made me realize im like the girl in the drama im watching currently while crying since this morning despite many hilarious scenes but she had a better life i guess lol. pathetic huh? anyway i feel better writing this, thank you to whoever is reading this and i'm sorry for being a burden to you
I have being unlucky all my life
Family? my father abandoned me since my parents are divorced, we didn't talk for years and my relatives they barely know my age and i have a half-sister, the last time i saw her, she was 2 years old and she's 8 years old and i really miss her but i can't do a single shit about it.
Friends? i've never had a good friendship, someone to lean on whenever it became tough to me, all my friendships, i'm the only ended up being hurt despite giving my everything and tryin to keep our relations.
Studies? They gave me a course in a far-away-from-home university and i lived by myself for a whole year, i became more depressed and i had many mental issues yet now when i thought my friend will help me out to move into an university i dreamt of, she chose another friend and i was left out.
Boyfriend? tbh i have one but my social anxiety and my current depression about maybe not be able to go to the university that i dreamt of, makes me want to stay alone all time and cry by myself because at those times.
I found out that many people used me as always, when i actually had decided many times to stop giving trust to anyone but i just idk, only mum is by my side which made me fear if i lost her what i'm going to do? i have no one pratically and i feel like im shattered every day...
I feel like a post-it girl or unwanted guest to everyone, i'm useful but meaningless to them, which made me realize im like the girl in the drama im watching currently while crying since this morning despite many hilarious scenes but she had a better life i guess lol. pathetic huh? anyway i feel better writing this, thank you to whoever is reading this and i'm sorry for being a burden to you