Butterflies said:
I've managed to keep my terrible fears a secret for most of my life. I recently expressed how I feel (to a small degree) with the person closest to me in my life. My own family didn't even know (and still don't know what I've struggled through! - guess I thought they'd think I was mad.
Just wondering if anyone else keeps there social fears a secret?
hey butterflies, don't worry i am in the exact same situation. My family have no idea. My mum thinks i am a very confident, outgoing person!
I have lied and lied and managed to create this personna. I feel it is easier. If i told them they would try to help and it wouldn't work.
And I am the golden girl of the family. My sister has anorexia, severe mental problems. She takes up all my mums time and energy. I make up for my sister by being normal and the 'perfect' daughter. My sister has told my mum in the past that she has been a terrible mother and that's why she has problems, so if i told my mum about my social phobia she would think this is true. I cannot tell my mum because it would break her, and she has been a really good mum. My sister caused my social phobia when she vented out her problems onto me mercilessly. But because i am the 'golden girl' in my family, my sister always tells me how i am so lucky and her life is so miserable, how i got the best deal and she got the raw end of the stick etc etc. When i have to deal with all this and silently to make up for her actions.