ocdjoe2007
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Well guys, after reading a lot of these posts here I truly feel your pain. It is a life we did not chose and yet we make the best of it.
I have experienced all sorts of OCDs come and go and some of them still burden me. I have done everything from handwashing, pressing nails onto edges of tables, obsessing over even numbers, intrusive thoughts, touching, organizing objects, checking, seeing words in my mind when saying them, and several others.
One thing has been effecting me the last couple of years very strongly. I am sure that it has been around even earlier, but I do not remember. It has caused me much depression and anxiety.
After talking with a person, I will obsess over if I should have responded differently to him/her. I will replay the conversation several times in my head.
I tend do this mostly after an incident such as I feel a person said something and I felt it might have been directed negatively towards me. After this "conversation" or incident passes, I will obsess over if I should have responded harsher to the person. I will replay the incident so many times in my head imagining different outcomes of actions I could have taken and realize that I didn't take them, and hate myself for it. I will also develop a strong hatred for this person.
Even if the person was only joking with me or didnt mean anything by it, his contribution in starting this cycle of agonizing thoughts in my head creates this hate for him, and makes me uncomfortable around the person and avoid him/her.
The thoughts about such a specific incident, do not just burden my mind for minutes, but rather off-and-on for days and days, till another incident or situation arrises which shifts the focus of my mind.
This problem has caused me to have a strong trust issue with people, and caused me a great deal of lack of a social life. I have developed an anxiety of people and feel strong depression at times. I am unable to get along with any family members, and avoid most of them because I am afraid of judgmental comments or other such comments that will make me feel as though they are trying to challenge me and causes me to start agonizing with my thoughts about it again, ending in depression.
I also have huge mood swings, where I often just feel like utter miserable emptyness and sometimes have feelings of overconfidence.
I would really like to hear from you guys about similar experiences/habbits and please share any comments and explanations that you may have for my problem, Thanks.
I have experienced all sorts of OCDs come and go and some of them still burden me. I have done everything from handwashing, pressing nails onto edges of tables, obsessing over even numbers, intrusive thoughts, touching, organizing objects, checking, seeing words in my mind when saying them, and several others.
One thing has been effecting me the last couple of years very strongly. I am sure that it has been around even earlier, but I do not remember. It has caused me much depression and anxiety.
After talking with a person, I will obsess over if I should have responded differently to him/her. I will replay the conversation several times in my head.
I tend do this mostly after an incident such as I feel a person said something and I felt it might have been directed negatively towards me. After this "conversation" or incident passes, I will obsess over if I should have responded harsher to the person. I will replay the incident so many times in my head imagining different outcomes of actions I could have taken and realize that I didn't take them, and hate myself for it. I will also develop a strong hatred for this person.
Even if the person was only joking with me or didnt mean anything by it, his contribution in starting this cycle of agonizing thoughts in my head creates this hate for him, and makes me uncomfortable around the person and avoid him/her.
The thoughts about such a specific incident, do not just burden my mind for minutes, but rather off-and-on for days and days, till another incident or situation arrises which shifts the focus of my mind.
This problem has caused me to have a strong trust issue with people, and caused me a great deal of lack of a social life. I have developed an anxiety of people and feel strong depression at times. I am unable to get along with any family members, and avoid most of them because I am afraid of judgmental comments or other such comments that will make me feel as though they are trying to challenge me and causes me to start agonizing with my thoughts about it again, ending in depression.
I also have huge mood swings, where I often just feel like utter miserable emptyness and sometimes have feelings of overconfidence.
I would really like to hear from you guys about similar experiences/habbits and please share any comments and explanations that you may have for my problem, Thanks.