blow my brains out

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I just think about it because my life isnt getting any further. I see the negative things in people and in myself because i cant get contact with others. This is not were im made for. There must be something positive, the reason why I am living is not 24/7 sitting @ home and fearing future situations. But how do I snap out of it. Not that blowing my head of will help.

 

[Anonymous]

Life will get better, but only if you choose for it to get better. No one can make you recover and feel better than you. Throw yourself into life and forget yourself. Push your way through this phase.

Life is Good!

 

[ricky]

feel 4 ya bud, i think that all the time n i always see the bad sides to situations an all teh negatives with people. but ther are positives but they wont happen until u have to try an get out ther (easier sed than done). i dont have the same sa about being with people so it hard 4 me to understand but small steps first ya, like try being in a situation that dont really matter 1st an that u can get out of if u feel really bad but try an forse yerself to stick ther as long as poz, an try keep ya head busy with sumin else on your mind so u don tthink constanly about sa n become mor relaxed. If that 2 much jus find more people on here first that will try an boast your confednece coz u can do it. ermm hmm ther was sumin else. life is 2 short n u cant put things off 4ever ya no, once u get into your 1st social situation an hav fun, after that prob get easier. it helps if the people around actually no your situation if pos as well cpz people will understand.

rick xx

 

[Anonymous]

The subject hit me. I feel precisely the same. Im 20 male, earning a good salary, but otherwise I can't make contact with people. Yesterday I made a few attempts at online dating, no responses from any of the people I wrote to. Today, I feel horrible, on the way to work I almost started crying on the public tranport (but I managed to maintain my angry frown). Now im sitting here infront of my PC, I just don't care. Waves of rage are rippling through me. From outside I look like im just doing my job, but any second I could just crack grab this monitor and throw it out the window (thats what I feel like). Maybe I'm just having a horrible day, the combination of not getting any response from the girls I wrote to, having a cold, and just having a bad day. I just hate myself, 1, I must be ugly cause why havent I had a gf yet, and this SP is making me look weak, I am mentally weak. I don't know, hope things get better.

 

[LilMissTragic]

Guest, you are far from mentally weak. Geez, you have a job...something I cant face yet, you have tried online dating, that takes guts in itself and you get on public transport...another thing I cant do on my own...yet.
If anything your very strong minded. We all get days where we wanna throw something. Yesterday was my day. Just when I think I've overcome my SP I realise theres a lot I still can't actually do but in no ways do I think I'm weak. I haven't seen one person here that is weak. Ok so we cant do certain things but we do deal with it. Its when we stop dealing with our problems and give up that we have finally weakened.

 

[Anonymous]

You're right worrydoll. No response isn't the end, maybe they were just busy, didn't check their messages, or just weren't interested and chose not to response. I'm sure theres someone else out there. I'm probably not trying enough people also...

 

[Anonymous]

Thanks LilMiss, you're right these are certainly things I have acomplished I only wish they were more satisfying, it's like when you get something, then you want the next best thing, and the vicious cycle repeats :?

 

[MRnomates]

You seem to be the most confident on here littlemiss do u really think sp goes?, i myself really don't think so.

As for people replying if your that bothered try putting a pic of a sexy guy on there he won't get many replies if any thats how the internet is no1 bothers

 

[LilMissTragic]

MrNoMates, confidence is easy...when the only thing your facing is a computer monitor
In real life I have my SP under control. Its not so much of a burden. I still have regular ugly days and I still cant work or use public transport. I dont like socialising much anyways but I do the odd small talk with people in the local shops. I think if I'm going to get any friends (which is one thing I lack in) then they would probably have to be very shy or have SP too.
Does anyone else hear think it would be easier to make friends with other SPers?

 

[ricky]

hehe thanks worrydoll, but another thing my posts are.......full of spelling mistakes an wrongs words, as i hav jus noticed. ah well its wat ya gte 4 quick typin an i think im a far ways from beating your xx posts.
making friends with sp people i would think would b alot easier coz they understand so straight away u feel more relaxed around them and they can really could help u get better in certain situations. An to kick sum1's ass if sum1 is puttin u threw hell! in the nicest ways posible.

rick xx

 

[Michelob512]

there are going to be times when you feel depressed, and you can only see the negative side of life- if you have SA, its going to happen. Hopefully its not 24/7- if it was, then medication or suicide would be the only options for me- but for most people it isnt.

So, when you're not feeling depressed, when you're feeling positive- thats when you should prepare yourself for future depression. If you can reflect on suffering when you feel fine, then future suffering will be easier to endure, easier to find positives or hopes in.

And another piece of advise- if you have SA, and you have time, RESEARCH! Since I was diagnosed, I have researched every possible cure. At times I've felt like I made progress, and at others I felt like nothing would work, but at the moment I have little doubt that in the end, this little bitch called SA will die, no matter how long it takes. If you want to know about what I've researched, just ask.