IcarusUnderWater2
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IcarusUnderWater2 said:So i went to my opticians a few months back and this girl behind the till was chatting about me to her colleagues who were behind me as i was standing at the desk waiting for something. I cant say for definite... but when i looked up she was miming the words "no way!"... so her friends obviously said something like 'is he your type?' behind my back.... she looked guilty aswell when i looked at her.
Today, i walk in and it turns out an old friend from college has started working there. When i saw her at the desk i was in two minds as to whether i should run away or not... but i was already exposed so i had to go with it.
So i was like 'hey how are you doing? i need some lenses please'. So it turns out the other girl (mime girl) was working with her on the desk and as she looked up it was like she recognised me and gave me this big smile. Of course i smiled back but i felt offended... it was like she had remembered me because she took the piss out of me last time.
anyways, i had no idea what to say to my old friend. She is really flirty and she was smiling alot... but i just felt like i wasnt really there. I felt like i was half asleep and i was sort of pretending the whole situation wasn't really happening. I have no energy and it takes a massive effort for me to do anything.
So she starts asking me things like 'what have you been upto' and i asked her the same... but my answers were just boring like 'oh really'..'oh cool'. She tried to make convo with me 3 or 4 times and she just gave up in the end i think. At one point she said 'your hair has gotten really long at the back' and all i said was 'yeah' and fell back in to my trance.
It felt awful. We used to fancy each other big time and today it was like she realised how dull i was.
So then the other girl came back with my lenses and i paid... and i was like 'thanks, bye sam'... and as i was walking away my legs were stiffening up, i was walking too fast aswell... i musta looked like a total loooooooooooser lol
Just the simple fact of entering a coffee shop freaked me out.
He was really a nice guy...Even today I regret that day
I feel exactly like this in almost any conversation. Don't have anything interesting to say or ask and most of the time I just ain't with it. Hell I cant even hear what the other person says in a conversation because im too self conscious. I know its not a physical problem with my ear. At home, talking with family, listening to music, talking to friends, I can hear fine, but as soon as I talk to someone who I dont know or I feel nervous around, it is difficult