molkolina
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Hi everyone. Last night I realised that my nerves around people are not healthy, out of curiousity I looked up 'people phobia' on the net and found out about something I had no idea existed.
I was at a wedding last night with my brother and many of his friends, it was something that I should have been looking foward to but I have been dreading the idea of being in a situation with people i do not see often and strangers. As I imagined there were lots of people in the reception, some I knew, sitting around tables and walking around socialising, a situation that sometimes scares me if i'm not too familiar with the people.
My usual solution for nerves (I know this sounds bad) is to drink more. I spoke to a friend of my brothers for a while, then i started to feel really ill, I was sweating and had this horrible feeling of paranoia. I noticed i was shaking so held my hands together trying to act normal, he later walked off to speak to friends. I was sat alone at the end of the table, that is when I started to feel really self-concsious, I didn't know where to look and just had cigarette after cigarette so I looked as though I was distracted, and not bothered by the fact I had no one to talk to. My brother noticed I was sitting alone and called me, he noticed that i was shaking so much when I gave him a cigarette, he took my hand and told me to calm down. I didn't know what excuse to give , so i worried him by saying I shake after drinking. To calm myself down I locked myself in the toilet and tried to stop myself from being so nervous.
It's such a horrible feeling to have, sometimes I'm confident around close friends, I have this two sided personality, I can be confident and crazy some nights, and others i'm a nervous wreck. I can't control my hands/ legs from shaking when i'm uncomfortable, and my hands sweating. I dread seeing people I know in my town, and sometimes take another route home to aviod contact. I think another problem that could have caused this is my speach. I say things really quickly as though I want to get what i'm saying over and done with, if people ask me to repeat myself I feel even worse, and thats why I say less.
Ok I wasn't meant to write this much, just wanted to describe what i'm feeling ! If someone does read this then I'd be grateful if you could let me know if these are symptoms of SP.
Hayley ***
I was at a wedding last night with my brother and many of his friends, it was something that I should have been looking foward to but I have been dreading the idea of being in a situation with people i do not see often and strangers. As I imagined there were lots of people in the reception, some I knew, sitting around tables and walking around socialising, a situation that sometimes scares me if i'm not too familiar with the people.
My usual solution for nerves (I know this sounds bad) is to drink more. I spoke to a friend of my brothers for a while, then i started to feel really ill, I was sweating and had this horrible feeling of paranoia. I noticed i was shaking so held my hands together trying to act normal, he later walked off to speak to friends. I was sat alone at the end of the table, that is when I started to feel really self-concsious, I didn't know where to look and just had cigarette after cigarette so I looked as though I was distracted, and not bothered by the fact I had no one to talk to. My brother noticed I was sitting alone and called me, he noticed that i was shaking so much when I gave him a cigarette, he took my hand and told me to calm down. I didn't know what excuse to give , so i worried him by saying I shake after drinking. To calm myself down I locked myself in the toilet and tried to stop myself from being so nervous.
It's such a horrible feeling to have, sometimes I'm confident around close friends, I have this two sided personality, I can be confident and crazy some nights, and others i'm a nervous wreck. I can't control my hands/ legs from shaking when i'm uncomfortable, and my hands sweating. I dread seeing people I know in my town, and sometimes take another route home to aviod contact. I think another problem that could have caused this is my speach. I say things really quickly as though I want to get what i'm saying over and done with, if people ask me to repeat myself I feel even worse, and thats why I say less.
Ok I wasn't meant to write this much, just wanted to describe what i'm feeling ! If someone does read this then I'd be grateful if you could let me know if these are symptoms of SP.
Hayley ***
