someoneelse1
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chronic blushing is absolutely horrible...
im 15 in year 11 at school, and ive had it for about a year now and its just getting worse...
ill go red at anything, like today, i was in town and i saw someone i knew from my class and i went bright red when she looked at me. shes just a normal girl from my school, who hasnt been mean to me or anything. i looked at her and my face went so red i couldnt even face her and had to turn the other way...im dreading school tomorow incase she or one of my friends will ask me about it. how idiotic must i have looked??? she just looked at me, and i went bright red??? how stupid???
i dont know if you know that terrible sinking feeling, when you just want everything to stop, and you feel like your sinking deeper and deeper into despair. thats what chronic blushing feels like for me.
thats just one example of course...
thats all it takes, just for someone i know to look me in the eye or walk past me. just for someone or a teacher to call out my name in class...
i go to a girls school, and i also get terribly intimidated by extrovert/pretty/popular girls, if they talk to me ill just blush and stutter an answer. and last week me and my friends were talking about the 'popular' girls, and then one of my friends said, 'i can imagine you going bright red if [girls name] talked to you'. that of course triggered me to blush, but thankfully my friends didnt notice.. they dont understand about it, and i would never be able to tell them.
i dont feel like im in control of my life. i feel like the chronic blushing is..and i dread going to school every day, in case something will happen that will cause me to go red or make an idiot of myself.
im sorry to make a depressing post like this but this chronic blushing is making me seriously depressed, and i have to offload it all somewhere because noone will understand...
im 15 in year 11 at school, and ive had it for about a year now and its just getting worse...
ill go red at anything, like today, i was in town and i saw someone i knew from my class and i went bright red when she looked at me. shes just a normal girl from my school, who hasnt been mean to me or anything. i looked at her and my face went so red i couldnt even face her and had to turn the other way...im dreading school tomorow incase she or one of my friends will ask me about it. how idiotic must i have looked??? she just looked at me, and i went bright red??? how stupid???
i dont know if you know that terrible sinking feeling, when you just want everything to stop, and you feel like your sinking deeper and deeper into despair. thats what chronic blushing feels like for me.
thats just one example of course...
thats all it takes, just for someone i know to look me in the eye or walk past me. just for someone or a teacher to call out my name in class...
i go to a girls school, and i also get terribly intimidated by extrovert/pretty/popular girls, if they talk to me ill just blush and stutter an answer. and last week me and my friends were talking about the 'popular' girls, and then one of my friends said, 'i can imagine you going bright red if [girls name] talked to you'. that of course triggered me to blush, but thankfully my friends didnt notice.. they dont understand about it, and i would never be able to tell them.
i dont feel like im in control of my life. i feel like the chronic blushing is..and i dread going to school every day, in case something will happen that will cause me to go red or make an idiot of myself.
im sorry to make a depressing post like this but this chronic blushing is making me seriously depressed, and i have to offload it all somewhere because noone will understand...