allanboy
Well-known member
hey all. Just introduced myself there to the introductory thread. How you all doing?
Here, i´ve been chatting with this girl for like almost 2 weeks. A cousin of a cousin of my friend, not hot, but nice(i aint got any choices after all), looks kinda shy, good talking to her, have some identification. Hum, since wednesday i´ve been complimenting her, and cheers, told her how i like to meet her at school intervals(only time i see her, really). I´ve been picturing myself with her kind of often, i´d really like to give her a treat(first girlfriend ever heh). Get all the text and things to do in my mind, but when i get by her to talk, i only chat. Doesnt come close or anything, just chat.
Today i thought that was enough, i was taking to godamn long, went to my cousin´s house to meet her. Bought some gum on the way, helps a lot. Got there, she answered, asked about some magazines my friend was to give me and chatted real quick. Said cya and went away. Shhiit, nothing happened. Walked around the block, like readying myself to a fight. Made my mind and knocked again, this time kisses are positive.
Got there, we sat in a couch, I said something like(cant even remember it) your face is so pretty, i really liked going there to see her and another thing. She thanked or said something and i just sat there, freakin immobilized, to near her, touch her, remotivily getting my lips to hers. My embarassment was clear i think. Stood up, "cya later", walked home. Fucking ashamed. What was all that fear, lack of movement, rookieness. Everybody goes right at it. I just cant rationalize getting by a girl and kissing her like that. It pictures nice in my mind, but unreal in life. How am i going to live like that. Godamnit, went for some jogging(luckly it rained) and am typing this.
Phew, some relief, had to tell this to someone. Sorry for probable bad writing, the ideas arent very organized right now. Thanks all
Edit: forgot to say, whenever i remember me talking to her, that last bit, i get some extreme shame, my face twitches like if i saw something really gross.
Here, i´ve been chatting with this girl for like almost 2 weeks. A cousin of a cousin of my friend, not hot, but nice(i aint got any choices after all), looks kinda shy, good talking to her, have some identification. Hum, since wednesday i´ve been complimenting her, and cheers, told her how i like to meet her at school intervals(only time i see her, really). I´ve been picturing myself with her kind of often, i´d really like to give her a treat(first girlfriend ever heh). Get all the text and things to do in my mind, but when i get by her to talk, i only chat. Doesnt come close or anything, just chat.
Today i thought that was enough, i was taking to godamn long, went to my cousin´s house to meet her. Bought some gum on the way, helps a lot. Got there, she answered, asked about some magazines my friend was to give me and chatted real quick. Said cya and went away. Shhiit, nothing happened. Walked around the block, like readying myself to a fight. Made my mind and knocked again, this time kisses are positive.
Got there, we sat in a couch, I said something like(cant even remember it) your face is so pretty, i really liked going there to see her and another thing. She thanked or said something and i just sat there, freakin immobilized, to near her, touch her, remotivily getting my lips to hers. My embarassment was clear i think. Stood up, "cya later", walked home. Fucking ashamed. What was all that fear, lack of movement, rookieness. Everybody goes right at it. I just cant rationalize getting by a girl and kissing her like that. It pictures nice in my mind, but unreal in life. How am i going to live like that. Godamnit, went for some jogging(luckly it rained) and am typing this.
Phew, some relief, had to tell this to someone. Sorry for probable bad writing, the ideas arent very organized right now. Thanks all
Edit: forgot to say, whenever i remember me talking to her, that last bit, i get some extreme shame, my face twitches like if i saw something really gross.