cowboyup
Well-known member
This may not make much sense - I am sleep deprived and thus my thoughts are not on track, but here goes...
It's pretty irritating when you're in the shower and you have a panic attack because your mind begins to race with unwanted thoughts about how I should be doing this, or need to finish that, or I really must get going on this thing....I don't have time to shower I must be doing....
Then when I actually go to DO (whatever IT is) I feel like my mind and body freeze, like I can't move forward to finish a task, if that makes sense.
I have only been sleeping a few hours a night for, at least, the past week. I know that plays some part. Doctor prescribed Trazodone but I can not take those due to bad side effects.
I pulled out my self-hypnosis and meditation mp3s but again, when I go to actually DO, I freeze...I don't understand it. My mind has all these racing thoughts of things I need, should be doing - and it's not huge things, just ordinary thing we all do, homework, cleaning, running to the store to get something, whatever...but I end up at a standstill thinking, where should I turn to next.
I have been thinking a lot about my home life as nothing has changed and seems to only get worse as time goes on and I only get older and less in charge of my life which scares the heck out of me...
My dreams, when I do sleep, have been filled with my mom who passed away in 2004. A couple nights ago, in my dream she 'showed' me an old friend of the family....makes me wonder if he passed away...
Conclusion...I JUST CAN'T GET MY MIND TO SHUT UP...
any suggestions would be helpful.
It's pretty irritating when you're in the shower and you have a panic attack because your mind begins to race with unwanted thoughts about how I should be doing this, or need to finish that, or I really must get going on this thing....I don't have time to shower I must be doing....
Then when I actually go to DO (whatever IT is) I feel like my mind and body freeze, like I can't move forward to finish a task, if that makes sense.
I have only been sleeping a few hours a night for, at least, the past week. I know that plays some part. Doctor prescribed Trazodone but I can not take those due to bad side effects.
I pulled out my self-hypnosis and meditation mp3s but again, when I go to actually DO, I freeze...I don't understand it. My mind has all these racing thoughts of things I need, should be doing - and it's not huge things, just ordinary thing we all do, homework, cleaning, running to the store to get something, whatever...but I end up at a standstill thinking, where should I turn to next.
I have been thinking a lot about my home life as nothing has changed and seems to only get worse as time goes on and I only get older and less in charge of my life which scares the heck out of me...
My dreams, when I do sleep, have been filled with my mom who passed away in 2004. A couple nights ago, in my dream she 'showed' me an old friend of the family....makes me wonder if he passed away...
Conclusion...I JUST CAN'T GET MY MIND TO SHUT UP...
any suggestions would be helpful.