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OCDreallysucks
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I'm constantly fearing that I leave something important behind and I perform a bunch of weird rituals.
For example, when I get in my car and back out of a parking space I always check the parking space I just backed out of for like 2 minutes to make sure I didn't drop anything as I was getting in the car.
Another example of this is whenever I leave a room(a classroom in this example), I always stop and make sure I didn't leave anything on the desk or didn't drop anything under the desk or left anything on the chair. This constant checking makes me the last one always to leave a class and it really gets frustrating because if I don't do this, I cannot concentrate in my next class because I think I might've left something in the previous class.
Now this next thing I do is just really weird. Whenever I throw away anything in the trash, I have to make absolutely sure that whatever I threw away is definitely trash. In order to alleviate this I tend to try to avoid throwing things away, but then things get unorganized. But whenever I throw something away and if I don't check I keep thinking I might have thrown away something important.
I've come to the conclusion that all my paranoia is based on a fear of losing something valuable...but I have so many weird rituals and it pisses me off whenever I do it because I know that I don't need to check, but if I don't do it then I can't function properly.
I've only told a few people about this problem and nobody understands the situation I'm in and I'm able to socialize pretty well, but I could be better because whenever I'm talking to somebody I'm thinking about whether or not I left something behind as well. I haven't tried professional help and I don't intend to because I think this is something I can conquer on my own.
So, my question is...do I have OCD or something else? And also am I not alone with these types of anxieties? Has anyone been able to defeat these types of worries?
Any feedback would mean very much to me thanks.
For example, when I get in my car and back out of a parking space I always check the parking space I just backed out of for like 2 minutes to make sure I didn't drop anything as I was getting in the car.
Another example of this is whenever I leave a room(a classroom in this example), I always stop and make sure I didn't leave anything on the desk or didn't drop anything under the desk or left anything on the chair. This constant checking makes me the last one always to leave a class and it really gets frustrating because if I don't do this, I cannot concentrate in my next class because I think I might've left something in the previous class.
Now this next thing I do is just really weird. Whenever I throw away anything in the trash, I have to make absolutely sure that whatever I threw away is definitely trash. In order to alleviate this I tend to try to avoid throwing things away, but then things get unorganized. But whenever I throw something away and if I don't check I keep thinking I might have thrown away something important.
I've come to the conclusion that all my paranoia is based on a fear of losing something valuable...but I have so many weird rituals and it pisses me off whenever I do it because I know that I don't need to check, but if I don't do it then I can't function properly.
I've only told a few people about this problem and nobody understands the situation I'm in and I'm able to socialize pretty well, but I could be better because whenever I'm talking to somebody I'm thinking about whether or not I left something behind as well. I haven't tried professional help and I don't intend to because I think this is something I can conquer on my own.
So, my question is...do I have OCD or something else? And also am I not alone with these types of anxieties? Has anyone been able to defeat these types of worries?
Any feedback would mean very much to me thanks.