Anonymous
Well-known member
I dont know whether I do or I dont to be honest... but here's my problem.
I am 23 yr old graduate from a top university, with a degree in Business Studies and good academic record overall.
My problem is that I have somehow or the other LOST my ability to communicate or SPEAK.
When I say that I dont mean that presentations or social interactions make me feel nervous because I am a shy or reserved person, but my situation is slightly more complex.
For the last 4-5 years, since I started my A Levels and then my degree, I have devoted as much time to my studies as possible ; while I have friends, I was not so keen on socialising with them, going out etc ; because I wanted to devote as much time to my studies as possible (i guess that was partly due to family pressure and expectations).
Further more, we also moved houses about 3 or so yrs ago to a new area which did'nt help
Anwyay I gradually got into this habbit of less and less social interaction and going out ; because initially I wanted to spend that time on studies.
However my problem only then started to show up - Its hard to explain , but somehow I have almost FORGOTTEN how to talk.
When I try talking, its like my voice just behaves randomly and become unpredictable. I am unable to articulate words properly, has anyone else ever experienced this? its like my lips dont move properly when I talk but the wierd thing is this only happens RANDOMLY (not all the time ; occasionally I am speaking fine ). As a result I get a lot of people asking me to REPEAT what I Say or giving m strange looks. My speaking style has also become monotonous on occasions, sometimes I end up speaking in a different accent/style to different people ; ie, differently to my family and friends, differently at an interview or on the phone. I'm just clueless at what happens and it just doesn't sound like me or how I used to talk. I have had people telling me the same.
The biggest problem now is that I have become very self-conscious about how i speak and my voice/articulation, are my lips moving right? etc , etc.
I am unable to have conversations with people simply because I get anxious and PANIC when I realise my voice and speech isn't coming out right (its something that happens randomy and I dread its going to happen any minute)
As a result I am now stuck doing a job as a Word Processing operator which I chose because it involves little social interaction.
I wanted to pursue a career in marketing at a top firm but I guess that's only a dream now that will never be fulfilled.
The thing which hurts me is I was never like this as a child, at school I was known to be the most intelligent , assertive and talktative guy in my class. Always keen on giving presentations in front of the class.
I am still even today not AFRAID of public speaking - i know it sounds really wierd when I say this - but my voice/speech difficulties completely DISABLE ME, that causes me to panic, get anxious, frustrated and completely lose control.
I know my problem is extremely difficult to describe, but I will appreciate if someone can advise me and also if someone else has had similar expreiences.
I am 23 yr old graduate from a top university, with a degree in Business Studies and good academic record overall.
My problem is that I have somehow or the other LOST my ability to communicate or SPEAK.
When I say that I dont mean that presentations or social interactions make me feel nervous because I am a shy or reserved person, but my situation is slightly more complex.
For the last 4-5 years, since I started my A Levels and then my degree, I have devoted as much time to my studies as possible ; while I have friends, I was not so keen on socialising with them, going out etc ; because I wanted to devote as much time to my studies as possible (i guess that was partly due to family pressure and expectations).
Further more, we also moved houses about 3 or so yrs ago to a new area which did'nt help
Anwyay I gradually got into this habbit of less and less social interaction and going out ; because initially I wanted to spend that time on studies.
However my problem only then started to show up - Its hard to explain , but somehow I have almost FORGOTTEN how to talk.
When I try talking, its like my voice just behaves randomly and become unpredictable. I am unable to articulate words properly, has anyone else ever experienced this? its like my lips dont move properly when I talk but the wierd thing is this only happens RANDOMLY (not all the time ; occasionally I am speaking fine ). As a result I get a lot of people asking me to REPEAT what I Say or giving m strange looks. My speaking style has also become monotonous on occasions, sometimes I end up speaking in a different accent/style to different people ; ie, differently to my family and friends, differently at an interview or on the phone. I'm just clueless at what happens and it just doesn't sound like me or how I used to talk. I have had people telling me the same.
The biggest problem now is that I have become very self-conscious about how i speak and my voice/articulation, are my lips moving right? etc , etc.
I am unable to have conversations with people simply because I get anxious and PANIC when I realise my voice and speech isn't coming out right (its something that happens randomy and I dread its going to happen any minute)
As a result I am now stuck doing a job as a Word Processing operator which I chose because it involves little social interaction.
I wanted to pursue a career in marketing at a top firm but I guess that's only a dream now that will never be fulfilled.
The thing which hurts me is I was never like this as a child, at school I was known to be the most intelligent , assertive and talktative guy in my class. Always keen on giving presentations in front of the class.
I am still even today not AFRAID of public speaking - i know it sounds really wierd when I say this - but my voice/speech difficulties completely DISABLE ME, that causes me to panic, get anxious, frustrated and completely lose control.
I know my problem is extremely difficult to describe, but I will appreciate if someone can advise me and also if someone else has had similar expreiences.