I definitely love my own personality. Always have; always will.
I'm unique. I'm a comic.
It's where I've been ever since the very first day I stepped into an office, wearing a shirt & tie, when it was 1998, that it took a few weeks to start realising this... but it took me a real 10 years to finally know for sure that I do NOT belong in an office at all.
Not one person has ever accepted me as the person I am, with a freedom-of-speech attitude, and a real kick to my personality ever before that first office day. Now oppressed by officedom, life is lost. Put one foot wrong, and you're rejected.
I could come from a different angle about me, and what's changed, but your thread has got me thinking this way again, so thank you for that.
New thought... a football team. Does every single member HAVE TO think and do exactly the same, all the time? Can a member be yourself? In an office, it's about "fitting in" with 5 people, or 100 people, or... 1,000 people? eg. call centre? Hivemind.
One joke. One person laughs. Nobody laughs? 1,000 laugh? 200 laugh? That's it. Get rid of him! He doesn't fit in here!
That's my experience.
PLEASE! Someone tell me! I really try & try to repeat others' thread and follow that, in an office, smiling, whether it's the boss or someone else. Whatever I do - quiet, loud, thoughtful, sublime, subtle. Everything always leads to outright rejection.
I've been looking for the reason for this ever since 1998. I have not given up. This forum should have the ultimate answer for me. There is one thing I've been looking for and nobody has said this to my face in the office. It always ends in "Thank you for all your work, Mike.. we have to let you go. Sorry" Something like that.
I've had a bit of criticism on here. THAT is what I'm looking for. Where did I put a foot wrong?
A turbulent mind? I am emotional. I keep that in control in an office. Following instructions is not my strong point.
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