Anonymous
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Most people that I know say what I go through is completely stupid and I should "stop" .. What they dont understand is that I have, I've tried plenty of times and its not as if I can wake up one day and say "Hmm I think im gonna stop being afraid of people and just completely change who I am to fit how everyone else thinks I should be!" and then just become a social butterfly.. If it were truely that easy im sure alot of us would have already changed outselves to fit in more with everyone else. My parents always tell me its all in my head and that most teens feel the same way I do.. I highly doubt that is true or everyone at school wouldn't be able to continue a conversation with anyone else.
Everyone at my school is constantly asking why I dont talk or why I never smile or why im always stareing at the grond and it only makes me feel worse. Everyone is always teling me to talk more and when im around someone I barely know they always end up saying "I never heard you say anything.. say something" I always end up saying what? or something to keep them from focusing on me but it really only makes me feel worse and even more anti-social.
Another thing that bothers me is the fact my parents are always telling me to go outside and meet people so I dont sit inside my house all summer, they act as if its the easiest thing in the world, then i have to hear them talk about how they were when they were younger "Man, when I was you age I was so popular and everyone hung with me" I wish she'd understand im NOT her and that I am my own person with my own problems and my own social status. I really feel like no one truely understands me, and never will.
My boyfriend seems to understand me, he even says he does, but often he will think its odd that I act a certin way in a certin place and he will even sometimes try to convince me nothings wrong with the situation, he doesnt understand that I know how i feel is sometimes sorta without an actual possible reason but it doesnt change how I feel about it and I've told him that but he still tries to help me, which is nice of him but it really doesnt help. Sometimes it seems like he's only trying to understand me I know it will take time for him to fully understand me but I still feel as if no one in my life will ever really understand me..
Do any of you have someone that really understands you that isnt also Social Phobic?? Even your parents or spouse?? Or is it just normal for no one to ever really understand how you really feel inside??
((P.S. is anyone else here 16 yrs old?? or even around that age??))
Everyone at my school is constantly asking why I dont talk or why I never smile or why im always stareing at the grond and it only makes me feel worse. Everyone is always teling me to talk more and when im around someone I barely know they always end up saying "I never heard you say anything.. say something" I always end up saying what? or something to keep them from focusing on me but it really only makes me feel worse and even more anti-social.
Another thing that bothers me is the fact my parents are always telling me to go outside and meet people so I dont sit inside my house all summer, they act as if its the easiest thing in the world, then i have to hear them talk about how they were when they were younger "Man, when I was you age I was so popular and everyone hung with me" I wish she'd understand im NOT her and that I am my own person with my own problems and my own social status. I really feel like no one truely understands me, and never will.
My boyfriend seems to understand me, he even says he does, but often he will think its odd that I act a certin way in a certin place and he will even sometimes try to convince me nothings wrong with the situation, he doesnt understand that I know how i feel is sometimes sorta without an actual possible reason but it doesnt change how I feel about it and I've told him that but he still tries to help me, which is nice of him but it really doesnt help. Sometimes it seems like he's only trying to understand me I know it will take time for him to fully understand me but I still feel as if no one in my life will ever really understand me..
Do any of you have someone that really understands you that isnt also Social Phobic?? Even your parents or spouse?? Or is it just normal for no one to ever really understand how you really feel inside??
((P.S. is anyone else here 16 yrs old?? or even around that age??))
I don't care if the pills kill me in the end.. as long as I would die happy