otter
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I'm not sure if this is an ocd, but there are correlations. Since I was a child I have been unable to deal with repetitive noise and movements. I also can't handle background noise such as people talking or music. I often wear earplugs or stick my fingers in my ears, or I leave, and sometimes I tell people to stop. If someone is jiggling their leg then I cover my line of vision with my hand or I change location.
The reason I think this is an ocd is because I block my ears and eyes even when there is nothing happening. I know I must look mad but at the same time I don't care. It calms me down. My boyfriend clears his throat all the time and I whine every time even though I know he can't stop, and it damages our relationship. If someone is sniffing in a lecture then I can't focus at all. I boil up and my ears itch.
This is a huge problem for me as it makes me feel suicidal, and also I've quit jobs and courses because of it, and have tainted and ruined many relationships. People think it's funny at first but then it freaks them out.
I also have other very mild signs of ocd such as skin picking, scalp scratching and other hard-to-explain compulsions.
I need help but I can't afford CBT and I hate medication. If I know what's wrong then I may be able to help myself.
I'm desperate.
The reason I think this is an ocd is because I block my ears and eyes even when there is nothing happening. I know I must look mad but at the same time I don't care. It calms me down. My boyfriend clears his throat all the time and I whine every time even though I know he can't stop, and it damages our relationship. If someone is sniffing in a lecture then I can't focus at all. I boil up and my ears itch.
This is a huge problem for me as it makes me feel suicidal, and also I've quit jobs and courses because of it, and have tainted and ruined many relationships. People think it's funny at first but then it freaks them out.
I also have other very mild signs of ocd such as skin picking, scalp scratching and other hard-to-explain compulsions.
I need help but I can't afford CBT and I hate medication. If I know what's wrong then I may be able to help myself.
I'm desperate.