Why is that what races through my head whenever someone knocks on my door?!
It's pretty sad, but I have a minor panic attack EVERY time I hear knocking, even if it's on a door down the hall...I've only actually answered my door once when I wasn't expecting someone, since I've lived alone..which has been a while now...sometimes I'll sit completely silent until I'm sure whoever was there is long gone. Because of this I never have packages delivered to my apartment, I have them sent to my parent's home more than an hour away...talk about irrational.
I mean, I guess my fear isn't completely unfounded...I'm a girl living alone in a big city...and I blacked out my peephole in order to make my entryway a darkroom so I can't actually check to see if it's a psycho killer or not...lol I think I'm officially on my way to being a crazy hermit lady...
But the thing that drives me completely insane is afterward, wondering for days WHO the hell was actually at my door?? Was it a neighbor? I've never even met my neighbors. I live in a secured building so you can't get in unless you have a key or someone buzzes you in...so who could it be??...Once right after my car had been broken into someone knocked on my door late that night, so of course I thought it some kind of car thief/burglar/stalker who had followed me home and I stayed awake the entire night freaked out...so pathetic.
Has anyone else ever felt like this? Or am I just completely insane??
It's pretty sad, but I have a minor panic attack EVERY time I hear knocking, even if it's on a door down the hall...I've only actually answered my door once when I wasn't expecting someone, since I've lived alone..which has been a while now...sometimes I'll sit completely silent until I'm sure whoever was there is long gone. Because of this I never have packages delivered to my apartment, I have them sent to my parent's home more than an hour away...talk about irrational.
I mean, I guess my fear isn't completely unfounded...I'm a girl living alone in a big city...and I blacked out my peephole in order to make my entryway a darkroom so I can't actually check to see if it's a psycho killer or not...lol I think I'm officially on my way to being a crazy hermit lady...
But the thing that drives me completely insane is afterward, wondering for days WHO the hell was actually at my door?? Was it a neighbor? I've never even met my neighbors. I live in a secured building so you can't get in unless you have a key or someone buzzes you in...so who could it be??...Once right after my car had been broken into someone knocked on my door late that night, so of course I thought it some kind of car thief/burglar/stalker who had followed me home and I stayed awake the entire night freaked out...so pathetic.
Has anyone else ever felt like this? Or am I just completely insane??