emmdee
Well-known member
I know that if i want to get anywhere in life, i have to get past my social anxiety.
But that would require treatment.
And treatment would require telling my parents. Which i don't really want to do. That would lead to too much crap that i don't want to talk about.
There is not a specific reason, i just don't want the whole world knowing and i know my mother will do that if i tell her. Even if i tell her not to speak about it. And then it would just prove her thoughts of me as some useless, lame person who cannot do a thing. Plus, she will just say that we do not have enough money for treatment, and the whole point of telling her would be useless. Social anxiety is like the only thing i know of that can actually prevent you, in its own sick, twisted ways, to getting healthy.
So, should i wait until i am seventeen, have my driver's license, and sneak around to go to therapy? Or should i just say screw this and tell my parents?
...I know what you are going to say.
And i reallly, REALLY don't want to do that.
Eeek.
But that would require treatment.
And treatment would require telling my parents. Which i don't really want to do. That would lead to too much crap that i don't want to talk about.
There is not a specific reason, i just don't want the whole world knowing and i know my mother will do that if i tell her. Even if i tell her not to speak about it. And then it would just prove her thoughts of me as some useless, lame person who cannot do a thing. Plus, she will just say that we do not have enough money for treatment, and the whole point of telling her would be useless. Social anxiety is like the only thing i know of that can actually prevent you, in its own sick, twisted ways, to getting healthy.
So, should i wait until i am seventeen, have my driver's license, and sneak around to go to therapy? Or should i just say screw this and tell my parents?
...I know what you are going to say.
And i reallly, REALLY don't want to do that.
Eeek.