I don't mean to sound like a self pity party, I don't pity myself, but I know I'm a guilty person, guilty as in deserving of punishment, maybe just for thinking myself guilty. I've hated myself from guilt ever since I covered a sheet of paper, front and back, with the phrase in the 1st grade. You're not alone with that guilt, and you're not a bad person! You're human. Don't let the guilt get to you, we all make mistakes, nothing you do is "evil", evil leaves room for good and good leaves room for evil, evil spawns future good, I see it in the form of sensitivity. Somehow I don't know if I can say the same for me.