nedkelly
Well-known member
Hi everyone. Just wondering.How many of us out there with S/A, keep facing there demons, and never, ever, get over there shyness. I make myslef go out into public in some situations, time after time, but i never get over my shyness. I rarely seem to improve. I tell myself, as others have...that i just have to accept that i get nervous around others etc...,and that it is in my nature. I do believe this to an extent, but still cannot except it!, in many ways.
My mind tells me, so what if you muck up etc etc, but all of us S/A/Shyness sufferers have a yard stick on what has/or has not been a succsessful outcome in a particular situation. And there lies the problem, our measuring of ones self's performance is out of kilter with the norm. Of course many people worry about what people think of them...and i dislike when people say..well' we all go through that. Well we do, but us S/A,Shy people take it to the extreme.
And also there is that lingering thought..(if only i would stop worrying and be myself..then things will work out better). This sometimes works, but it is HARD, to be yourself in public.And you just end up forcing yoursef, to be yourself. And that is very draining.
But knowing that people are more excepting of you if you are having a comfortable moment, just makes it all worse for the next time. Because then you feel it is up to you to be you!, and thus have people like you.
Sorry to be so confusing people, i hope it made some sense.
I will never give up putting myself in uncomfortable situations though, but it's hard to fight all the time. I want to be normal!
Just sharing some of my inner demons.
Ash(nedkelly)
My mind tells me, so what if you muck up etc etc, but all of us S/A/Shyness sufferers have a yard stick on what has/or has not been a succsessful outcome in a particular situation. And there lies the problem, our measuring of ones self's performance is out of kilter with the norm. Of course many people worry about what people think of them...and i dislike when people say..well' we all go through that. Well we do, but us S/A,Shy people take it to the extreme.
And also there is that lingering thought..(if only i would stop worrying and be myself..then things will work out better). This sometimes works, but it is HARD, to be yourself in public.And you just end up forcing yoursef, to be yourself. And that is very draining.
But knowing that people are more excepting of you if you are having a comfortable moment, just makes it all worse for the next time. Because then you feel it is up to you to be you!, and thus have people like you.
Sorry to be so confusing people, i hope it made some sense.
I will never give up putting myself in uncomfortable situations though, but it's hard to fight all the time. I want to be normal!
Just sharing some of my inner demons.
Ash(nedkelly)