I've felt this way so many times before. There have been times that I have come close to just ending it, but I somehow forced myself to keep going. Some of those times, the very next day something would make me feel like life was still worth living. Usually it wasn't anything life-changing, but they were small things that reminded me I would miss them. Try to focus on those kinds of things. No matter how small they are, sometimes they are just enough to keep on fighting for. If you ever feel like you're on the verge of giving it all up, force yourself to take a long, deep breath before you act. Maybe figure out now what "go-to" songs you could have if you ever feel like you can't take it anymore. Those are a couple of things I have to do. Stay strong!