Anonymous
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Hey all. I'm doing better this week (last week was when I posted that enormous rant about not functioning at work or in life). Posts on this forum and others really help me see things in a less delusional light. Thank you all!
Today we had another little lunch gathering in the breakroom. It was an ice cream birthday for one of the designers (we have little birthdays for everyone). Once again I had ZERO to talk about with my coworkers (who are 90% female, the other two being either weirder than me or *eek* management, so I have no "male bonding" going on here). Plus the designer got little gifts from coworkers (even though they're explicitly banned from these gatherings!) in the dept. and from other depts. It's like everyone here have been friends forever, even the girl who started only a month before me. So I feel a bit left out.
Now I know that it was extreme in the other thread when I spoke of these folks being "perfect life-ers", but still... *everyone* (and this is not an exaggeration) in the dept. makes more $$ than I do. *everyone* in the dept., including those years younger than me, have their own places and nice new cars (I don't care so much about the material per se, it's a reflection of "where they've gotten to" that I haven't). And, to top it all off, *everyone* in my department--except me-- is either married, engaged, or in the midst of a successful long-term relationship. That's 20-something people, most of whom are in their 20s and 30s.
They have friends and relatives that they do stuff with, which they always talk about... they swoon over tales of showers and weddings for 23 year olds (i'm 31)... they talk about their houses and husbands and marriages and all the stuff they go out and do. They all have interests quite different from mine. I have nothing to talk about with these folks. And now they're so used to me being quiet that they don't try to talk to me. And some of the folks I had gotten along with before now seem hesitant or even afraid of talking to me. (??) Everyone here is so damn bubbly and outgoing. I'm the only shy one. (As if I need to stick out like a sore thumb any more than I do LOL )
Add in that I almost never have to interact with coworkers for most of my job duties (copy editing is a good field for SAers
), and spend lots of time bored to death due to a lack of work (and a lot of boring work when there is work), and it's no surprise that I get freaked out like I did last week.
I've only been here since May and I've already screwed up another work environment. Between that and having little to do, it's no wonder my career is going nowhere.
Today we had another little lunch gathering in the breakroom. It was an ice cream birthday for one of the designers (we have little birthdays for everyone). Once again I had ZERO to talk about with my coworkers (who are 90% female, the other two being either weirder than me or *eek* management, so I have no "male bonding" going on here). Plus the designer got little gifts from coworkers (even though they're explicitly banned from these gatherings!) in the dept. and from other depts. It's like everyone here have been friends forever, even the girl who started only a month before me. So I feel a bit left out.
Now I know that it was extreme in the other thread when I spoke of these folks being "perfect life-ers", but still... *everyone* (and this is not an exaggeration) in the dept. makes more $$ than I do. *everyone* in the dept., including those years younger than me, have their own places and nice new cars (I don't care so much about the material per se, it's a reflection of "where they've gotten to" that I haven't). And, to top it all off, *everyone* in my department--except me-- is either married, engaged, or in the midst of a successful long-term relationship. That's 20-something people, most of whom are in their 20s and 30s.
They have friends and relatives that they do stuff with, which they always talk about... they swoon over tales of showers and weddings for 23 year olds (i'm 31)... they talk about their houses and husbands and marriages and all the stuff they go out and do. They all have interests quite different from mine. I have nothing to talk about with these folks. And now they're so used to me being quiet that they don't try to talk to me. And some of the folks I had gotten along with before now seem hesitant or even afraid of talking to me. (??) Everyone here is so damn bubbly and outgoing. I'm the only shy one. (As if I need to stick out like a sore thumb any more than I do LOL )
Add in that I almost never have to interact with coworkers for most of my job duties (copy editing is a good field for SAers
), and spend lots of time bored to death due to a lack of work (and a lot of boring work when there is work), and it's no surprise that I get freaked out like I did last week. I've only been here since May and I've already screwed up another work environment. Between that and having little to do, it's no wonder my career is going nowhere.
