twist3d
Member
I saw the movie Black Swan a while ago. Great movie but what really struck with me was how the protagonist was like 28 and had no real life experiences, hadn't dated, didn't even have friends. She just did ballet and still lived with her mother. The m om was super protective and I guess it was largely her fault her daughter turned out that way.
Now I don't have overprotective parents, actually opposite, but I'm guessing many people here might.
The point is, I'm starting to realize more and more that I'm just like a child. I have not matured since I was about 14... Actually, I think that in many ways I've gotten worse, I used to be a lot less shy and passive.
Anyway, I'm 19 and in couple months will be 20. It's a huge deal to me because I always thought that by age of 20 it would be different. Nothing is going to change.
So many people are already having children, graduating from school, starting a career, traveling around the world etc.
I have done NOTHING in my life. I have achieved NOTHING.
I have no education.
I have only been in two very short jobs.
I am unemployed.
I have never had a boyfriend.
I have no friends.
I have no hobbies.
I have no direction in life.
I'm basically just waiting for death. I haven't told my parents I quit another school months ago. They are happy that I'm finally getting something done. Only reason I haven't killed myself is because I can't stand the idea of disappointing them AGAIN.
I've missed so many experiences that should come naturally growing up... I feel like I can never fix that no matter what. I'm forever freak because I missed such an essential part of life.. Best years my ass.
TL;DR: Does anyone else here feel like SA has prevented them from becoming mentally mature?
Now I don't have overprotective parents, actually opposite, but I'm guessing many people here might.
The point is, I'm starting to realize more and more that I'm just like a child. I have not matured since I was about 14... Actually, I think that in many ways I've gotten worse, I used to be a lot less shy and passive.
Anyway, I'm 19 and in couple months will be 20. It's a huge deal to me because I always thought that by age of 20 it would be different. Nothing is going to change.
So many people are already having children, graduating from school, starting a career, traveling around the world etc.
I have done NOTHING in my life. I have achieved NOTHING.
I have no education.
I have only been in two very short jobs.
I am unemployed.
I have never had a boyfriend.
I have no friends.
I have no hobbies.
I have no direction in life.
I'm basically just waiting for death. I haven't told my parents I quit another school months ago. They are happy that I'm finally getting something done. Only reason I haven't killed myself is because I can't stand the idea of disappointing them AGAIN.
I've missed so many experiences that should come naturally growing up... I feel like I can never fix that no matter what. I'm forever freak because I missed such an essential part of life.. Best years my ass.
TL;DR: Does anyone else here feel like SA has prevented them from becoming mentally mature?