everyone knows that in a relationship there has to be self esteem...but what if you feel threatened, ugly, when youre with you bf? i feel overly anxious whenever im with my bf & there happens to be an attractive girl with us, regardless of if we're at the mall, or in a restaurant, or even hanging out with friends. i constantly feel like im ugly, like i dont measure up, like my bf is sitting next to me & thinking "that girl is gorgeous, i wish i was with her" or "i wish my gf looked like her".
i was never like this. i was always fairly confident, self-assured, kinda knew i was attractive. i was comfortable in my own skin. but now, i feel like nobody, like im just getting less attractive by the second. im constantly worrying about my figure, my makeup, my hair, EVERYTHING. & it certainly isnt helping my sa.
of course, you should know, my bf is a self-proclaimed 'player'. & i know for a fact that he's been with many girls. i guess another thing is, every time we're out somewhere, he looks at other girls. & flirts. ...or maybe he doesnt flirt & its all in my head. maybe im just too paranoid & what is meaningless "niceness" to me is registered as flirtation. but regardless, i cant seem to help but get anxious every time we're out together.
& im like any girl, i get breakouts, i have bad hair days, i have days where i dont seem to fit into any cute clothes & nothing looks ok. but my bf, he always tells me im beautiful. even when i wake up in the morning, knowing i look like a monster. he always tells me im sexy & he wouldnt want to ever be with anyone else. but it just doesnt help. it also doesnt help that aparently my bf is wanted by every chick that seems to come our way.
plus, i dont have that many girlfriends...& now im starting to realize thats because im threatened.
does anyone else feel this way? how do you deal?
i was never like this. i was always fairly confident, self-assured, kinda knew i was attractive. i was comfortable in my own skin. but now, i feel like nobody, like im just getting less attractive by the second. im constantly worrying about my figure, my makeup, my hair, EVERYTHING. & it certainly isnt helping my sa.
of course, you should know, my bf is a self-proclaimed 'player'. & i know for a fact that he's been with many girls. i guess another thing is, every time we're out somewhere, he looks at other girls. & flirts. ...or maybe he doesnt flirt & its all in my head. maybe im just too paranoid & what is meaningless "niceness" to me is registered as flirtation. but regardless, i cant seem to help but get anxious every time we're out together.
& im like any girl, i get breakouts, i have bad hair days, i have days where i dont seem to fit into any cute clothes & nothing looks ok. but my bf, he always tells me im beautiful. even when i wake up in the morning, knowing i look like a monster. he always tells me im sexy & he wouldnt want to ever be with anyone else. but it just doesnt help. it also doesnt help that aparently my bf is wanted by every chick that seems to come our way.
plus, i dont have that many girlfriends...& now im starting to realize thats because im threatened.
does anyone else feel this way? how do you deal?