HOCD from a 19 yr old struggling

bearsfan20

bearsfan20

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I am a 20 yr old male from Illiniois. I have struggled with HOCD(homosexual ocd) now for a little while. I have always been straight, popular, into sports, the normal male things etc. When i turned 18 my hormones kicked in and i had a porn addiction. I started to wonder why i only like porn where the guy had a big member. Why did i even think about this. It made me feel like i was attracted to the "large male anatomy" its really freaking me out and making me feel gay. Making me feel atrracted to males. How can i overcome this? Do most men only watch pornography when men have large privates... And if so why?

I typed this on another forum if its easier to understand: Im a 19 yr old male. I have ocd pretty badly...Hocd lately if you all no what that is.

My questions are- Is it normal for males to notice other attractive males? It seems i have been doing this lately and it bugs me and makes me qustion my sexuality. If it is normal why do men do this.
In pornography is it normal to only like the porn when the guy has a big member. I am not usually turned on to porn unless the guy does... These question are bugging me .... I have always been staright but ever since these thoughts came in to my head i have obsessed! WHy do i like porn where the guy is big!

ANy advice would be appreciated
 
lettypagb

lettypagb

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everyone is gay , at least all the girls ,but if you can only think about huge penis ,you should not forget to take your meds
 
babaloo112

babaloo112

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I had ocd like this once too after I stopped seeing my ex and obsessed about a night I didnt perform well. I would think the same stuff, would walk around campus and start freaking out that I was looking at guys dicks and think my mouth started watering. I would force myself to imagine getting fucked in the ass, tried to masturbate to gay porn, etc. Truth is, I am not gay. Easy way to get over this is go to a gay club with a girl and dance with some gay dudes. Make friends with some gay guys. Force yourself to confront it and you will find out you are not gay. I am engaged now to a wonderful girl and we have sex all the time, and I no longer even think twice about dudes. But I am comfortable on noticing attractive men and such. It is normal.

Back to ruminations of violence though. Would much rather obsess about being gay...

Peace!
 
durda_dan

durda_dan

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i have had thoughts too, But i have a girlfriend, and i on't want to fuck boys anymore.
although now i get urges to eat my own semen and kiss her :( i'm not sre whihc one is worse
 
RiverJourney

RiverJourney

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Well, first I don't think one's sexuality should be linked to a mental illness such as OCD..homosexuality is not a mental illness, it is NOT an OCD. Second, there is absolutely nothing wrong with being gay (I am myself). Now regarding these feelings you have, I think it's quite normal for teenages to experiment with their sexuality. We all have some 'gay' tendencies..the question is do you always feel like this? Try looking at a gay porno site..if it turns you on then you are probably gay (which should be celebrated!) else it's just a passing thing..it took time for me to accept my homosexuality, but it felt great when I did, because I could finally express my true feelings..I just feel sorry for the poor guy I let it loose on, who got the whole brunt and fury of those years of pent up emotions! Anyway, sexuality is a changing notion, you can be gay and still be and have sex with women if you like (or vice versa)..one's sexuality is not a choice, but our lifestyle is..I don't chose to be gay but I can chose whether or not I wish to be with other guys or not or women. Hope this helps.. :)
 
durda_dan

durda_dan

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RiverJourney said:
Well, first I don't think one's sexuality should be linked to a mental illness such as OCD..homosexuality is not a mental illness, it is NOT an OCD. Second, there is absolutely nothing wrong with being gay (I am myself). Now regarding these feelings you have, I think it's quite normal for teenages to experiment with their sexuality. We all have some 'gay' tendencies..the question is do you always feel like this? Try looking at a gay porno site..if it turns you on then you are probably gay (which should be celebrated!) else it's just a passing thing..it took time for me to accept my homosexuality, but it felt great when I did, because I could finally express my true feelings..I just feel sorry for the poor guy I let it loose on, who got the whole brunt and fury of those years of pent up emotions! Anyway, sexuality is a changing notion, you can be gay and still be and have sex with women if you like (or vice versa)..one's sexuality is not a choice, but our lifestyle is..I don't chose to be gay but I can chose whether or not I wish to be with other guys or not or women. Hope this helps.. :)
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cngratlations
i have many gay friends myself and i agree with you, Except that gay pornsite part because sexual activities gay straight or even with animals are specificly made to arouse people being they are gay or straight. they are movie f people having sex.
that same notion could be made do i like children? lets watch a kiddy porn
which i wouldn't recomend if you really want to test yourself, it was psted above i think... Go to a gay bar and check it out, there will be no sexual indication to arrouse you, you will be in a place where you would see first hand.
 
getbornagain

getbornagain

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RiverJourney said:
Well, first I don't think one's sexuality should be linked to a mental illness such as OCD..homosexuality is not a mental illness, it is NOT an OCD. Second, there is absolutely nothing wrong with being gay (I am myself). Now regarding these feelings you have, I think it's quite normal for teenages to experiment with their sexuality. We all have some 'gay' tendencies..the question is do you always feel like this? Try looking at a gay porno site..if it turns you on then you are probably gay (which should be celebrated!) else it's just a passing thing..it took time for me to accept my homosexuality, but it felt great when I did, because I could finally express my true feelings..I just feel sorry for the poor guy I let it loose on, who got the whole brunt and fury of those years of pent up emotions! Anyway, sexuality is a changing notion, you can be gay and still be and have sex with women if you like (or vice versa)..one's sexuality is not a choice, but our lifestyle is..I don't chose to be gay but I can chose whether or not I wish to be with other guys or not or women. Hope this helps.. :)
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Your post is 100% wrong. A post like that will make an HOCD sufferer spike like mad. Mods should delete this post.
 
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