Danfalc
Banned
Im not sure if i can take this shit for to much longer, im gonna be 20 in like a month. Ive had this shit for like 2-3 years and its not getting any better.I was pleased when i first starting seeking help for it cos i felt like i was doing somthing constructive about it. But ive realised my shrink is a prick and he knows fuck all, all he does is nod in the right places and throw meds at me like there smarties.I have mates but i cant bear 2 be around them i cant even stand to be around any of my family.Ive heard it can take years to recover from sa/sp if you recover at all.I have no support with this, and even if i did get a social worker or somthing they wouldnt be able to understand what this shit is like to live with.Aswell with the anxiety getting worse its just harder to deal with it the longer it goes on. I use to be able to just not think about how shit things are, but recently ive been getting really derpressed at the fact i cant handle any social situation at all, and i mean any situation.With being 20 soon ive decided that if shit hasnt improved at all by the time im 25 im going to shoot myself.I know u guys have ur own problems and dont need to hear really fucked up depressing shit like this. But this is the only place i have to blow off some steam. So once again i apolagise for dropping this stuff on you, and i apolagise for my language i just needed to get this off my chest.