I think I just had the worst final exam in the history of my life lol. I'm usually an A student but now I'm actually in danger of failing this Electronic/trical Materials course. I couldn't care less about the final grade 'cause I fricken hate the course. But I do want to pass lol
My most favourite little cat run under a car 3 days before I came home from longer trip. Similar thing happened before, also my most favourite cat run under a car when I was away ::.
I've been in a state of depression for a while now...weeks instead of days. The thoughts at the forefront of my depression are: lonely, feeling very alone, and I don't ever see this changing. I'm doomed to be alone for the rest of my days, I just know it... I know it because I have been alone for 41 years, my track record speaks volumes...::
kinda cheesed at myself that i didn't go to my class's end of course luncheon thing today and spent the afternoon in bed sleeping. would it kill me to be social once in a while? yes it would.
I feel horrible. I still can't get a job. I never had a job in a date in my life. Either no one is hiring, or I can't get there....but then I don't even know if those places are hiring either. There is always a problem...
I just wish I had a place to be alone... where I don't have to think about people... not even my terrible life. Sometimes I want to make the best chooses for myself and enjoy m life but sometimes I don't think I will get any luck. Even seem to be in a high position than I am and I want to be higher than all of them.. and make it on my own. But there aren't may things I can do. Sometimes I just hate life itself.
I have a 10 minute presentation to do tomorrow in front of the entire class. I've been putting off practicing it because just thinking about it makes me nauseous.