DaaaBulls
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So I have been sitting around today and just reflecting back on my life, these are usually thoughts that make me extremely depressed. It started because I am 23 years old and am looking at eventually having to leave college and go and get a job. I started imagining what life will be like having a full time career, barely any friends, and no female relationships outside of one female friend. I then started to think about the lack of female relationships I have had in my life. I am 23 years old and still have not had sex, this really makes me feel bad. The not having sex part doesn't make me feel all that bad, the fact that I haven't even tried is what gets me down the most.
I get really down on myself for my lack of friends, social life and girls. I then realized that the reason for all of these things are because of my hands sweating. I have no friends because I make the decision to not have any friends, I just cannot deal with giving people high fives and shaking peoples hands so I make the choice to just limit the number of people I hang out with.
I then realize that the reason I have no social life is because I have no friends and because I cannot stand going out in public with my sweaty hands.
I then realize that I have/ had no girls because my hands make it near impossible for me to have any confidence in myself into establishing a relationship with a girl. I don't go out socially because the only reason I would want to go out socially is to meet girls. But since I know that I will never act on an urge to meet a girl at the bars or where ever I just make the decision to not even go out. What really is the point to going out with a specific goal in mind but already knowing that there is a Zero percent chance of acting on my goal?
I know it is not too late to start to live my life, but there is just no way I can live the life that I want with my hyperhidrosis. I could accomplish anything if I had dry hands. I would have immense confidence in myself. I could get any job that I wanted, I could be with girls that I like or find attractive, I could have friends and lead a normal social life. But all of this will never happen and that really saddens me. This is something that makes me feel so helpless.
I think the fact that I have never had a relationship with a girl is the biggest thing that the HH has done to my life. It makes me feel awful that I have never felt love for a girl and felt her love for me. That I have never had someone who in a world of millions of guys only wanted to be with me.
What about you guys/girls? How does HH affect your lives? What is the single thing that HH has kept you from doing that brings you down?
I get really down on myself for my lack of friends, social life and girls. I then realized that the reason for all of these things are because of my hands sweating. I have no friends because I make the decision to not have any friends, I just cannot deal with giving people high fives and shaking peoples hands so I make the choice to just limit the number of people I hang out with.
I then realize that the reason I have no social life is because I have no friends and because I cannot stand going out in public with my sweaty hands.
I then realize that I have/ had no girls because my hands make it near impossible for me to have any confidence in myself into establishing a relationship with a girl. I don't go out socially because the only reason I would want to go out socially is to meet girls. But since I know that I will never act on an urge to meet a girl at the bars or where ever I just make the decision to not even go out. What really is the point to going out with a specific goal in mind but already knowing that there is a Zero percent chance of acting on my goal?
I know it is not too late to start to live my life, but there is just no way I can live the life that I want with my hyperhidrosis. I could accomplish anything if I had dry hands. I would have immense confidence in myself. I could get any job that I wanted, I could be with girls that I like or find attractive, I could have friends and lead a normal social life. But all of this will never happen and that really saddens me. This is something that makes me feel so helpless.
I think the fact that I have never had a relationship with a girl is the biggest thing that the HH has done to my life. It makes me feel awful that I have never felt love for a girl and felt her love for me. That I have never had someone who in a world of millions of guys only wanted to be with me.
What about you guys/girls? How does HH affect your lives? What is the single thing that HH has kept you from doing that brings you down?