I remember when I first wrote my first post my heart was beating 3 times a second and I was sweating like hell :lol:
And that was not because it was my first time using a forum and I had no idea how to post , but because stupid thoughts started running through my mind like people here thinking : what is this freak doing here ? or : here is another loser on the forum, he sounds like he's 10 years old, he can't even type right, and I was afraid of all members jumping and criticising me and telling me: you don't belong here, we don't need weirdos here, f*ck off.
I used to read my posts like 6 times before i hit submit, checking if I sounded stupid or awkard and checking spelling and grammar with the dictionary by my side, all this time feeling a nervous wreck.
But I realised that Sp-ers and shy people here are all nice and caring and very supportive and understanding when u need them and very helpfull when u need an advice. I only check my posts once for grammar now, although I don't always get it right. This place has become like my second home
Well, I wouldn't say the same thing about different guest who sometimes should keep their mouth shut instead of insulting and being mean to our condition, I get very irritated when I see those kind of persons being wise asses. :evil:
Oh, and about the name, avatar, e-mail, MSN or yahoo messenger adress i use, only u guys know about it :wink:
And Toad, u should press submit more often, your posts sounds fine. Btw, nice avatar
I wish I could follow my own advice, I often change my mind when I want to post a story cause I think it's not interesting enough and boring and nobody cares what I think anyway. I'm still working on this paranoic thought.