Ben_Rowland
New member
Hello, Everyday I go to school and I learn. While there, no one really ever talks to me in any of my classes. If anyone does it is a few short words, nothing really more. I walk around everyday seeing everyone else talking and such and I feel left out, no one even like takes a glance at me. No one really ever pays any attention to me. I feel like a ghost of society, I don't talk to people much, I have bad conversation skills it's hard to even have small talk or even eye contact. I am in my mind most of the day thinking about things, like I feel like I have so much personality and life inside me but I just don't know how to release it. I guess I'm just a man made thought's. I go home read or do something, its kinda the same at home i can talk to my family a bit more but its like the same, and then I lay down to go to sleep and I just think about my life and my situation, and think about how I have no friends, or really a purose in life, or anyone I feel that really cares for who I am. I retrospect on this everynight. I look at the big picture and I feel that I've missed out on my life. I think feel everyone else is hanging out and while I'm always alone. My greatest fear is that all of this will continue into my adulthood and I won't ever get out of this, I'll work till I grow old and eventually die and never experience true life and happiness. I was wondering if anyone feels this way, and if there is I guess I'm not alone.