I am nothing

samk

samk

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I'm doomed to be nothing
everyone will be something
i will always be nothing

both sa and that i am not smart enough to go college or university
i am a failure at life all together
without college or university in this life
your nothing
your fucking failure that's the truth

i need to get guts because then i can end it all because i am not meant to live
this world is for everyone but me

i cant ever have a friend either it's just not possible
because i am the most boring person in the world and i am ugly and stupid


i am totally inferior to all

if only i had guts then i would leave this hell that is life
 
Helyna

Helyna

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both sa and that i am not smart enough to go college or university
i am a failure at life all together
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I'm betting that you would be smart enough if you believed in yourself. And nobody is a failure by nature. It's all about self-esteem and finding what it is that you are good at.
 
samk

samk

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I kinda hate college in a way .
how society views people without it .
this kinda thinking is stuck in my head .
if i got rid of it i might be better.

But sadly what i say about not being smart is true.

i am going to the college on Monday to see what i can take
but i am really nervous because i know i will be looked down on by them .
they just don't say what they really think .

like if i was asked to bring my high school transcript .
i will scared to give it to them or even too scared to be around them when they looked at it because what they might be thinking .

this and sa make life hell .
maybe one sa can be gone but not being smart is stuck with you for life.

i need college because i need to do something that can get me a real job .
otherwise i feel i have no future .

i have nothing i think i am good at.

i have no hope in life
i am jealous that people die but i am still here
 
autumn_82

autumn_82

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Psychedelicious said:
Nothing is the one word that can describe me for everything.
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Yeah, I often feel that way. I especially feel like "nothing" in relation to people and relationships. I guess that happens more often when you're quiet.
 
Richey

Richey

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really cool to read all your poems, its fun to just sit there on a train writing any old crap that means something to you, i started writing lyrics lately, i think it means i have ambition and drive but i feel trapped
they arn't normally this dark

These Days

I bounce off the walls every evening,
skylarking myself through unfound dimensions,
the trick is to not lose my mind
i'm stuck here on mount planet xerox
too much knowledge could only destroy me
ambition is to only escape this deep quicksand

the things i have seen in my time
im stuck stranded here in this forest
leaving footprints inbedded in time
wishing i could be anywhere else

these days i run in so many directions
just one road i cannot decide

these days i crave for a more complacent life
but instead i just stay here and hide

i'm stuck here on mount planet xerox
the phoneline is set on engaged
the answering machine always kicks in
ive left it far too late
far too late to decide

these days
these days

these days
these days
 
samk

samk

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So looks like life might not have anything for me .

So i went to the college and talked to someone and she i take anything
unless i upgrade but if i struggle with grading then what will i do.

Like people without college/university life doesn't have much offer them
if i wasn't a wimp i could do labor but i am a wimp.

I want to do something with my life but that i am a failure makes me more no want to like how will i be able to live with myself known that i might be stuck in meaningless job for the rest of my life.

Life sucks :cry:
 
Marie_knowsbest

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well...how do you expect to amount to anything when you think your nothing?
obviously a part of you thinks your worth something if your going to a college to have a look, or you wouldnt bother.
and as for people looking down on you...has anyone actualy said 'i look down on you'. probs not. so dont assume it. expect more of others, and they will expect more of you. thats how it works. eg smile at someone and they will smile back usualy.
 
samk

samk

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But without a good job how will i live
I can't live off 9 $ a hour forever and nor would i want to .

But my mind is filled with the views of society that you need to be something or your nothing


Even if they don't say it
they might be thinking wow he's old and working at this job what a fucking loser.
 
Argamemnon

Argamemnon

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Marie_knowsbest said:
with an attitude like that. u will amount to nothing. change ur attitude. and be somebody.
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are you saying that he has to go to college or university in order to be someone? maybe i got it wrong.
 
Marie_knowsbest

Marie_knowsbest

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nah it was a generalization, not that he has to do any particular thing to be somebody, you can be a poor street artist and be somebody!! dont matter how much money ya making, as long as your doing what YOU want to do, your making something of yourself arent ya, your being somebody!

and no, changing your attitude is not as easy and clicking your fingers, but you can make a start as soon as you want too.

let me put it this way. does the following sound like someone who is going to make something of themselves:

''i am stupid''
'' no one likes me''
'' im not worth the time''
'' i am boring''
etc etc etc

or does this sound like someone who is going to make something of themselves:

'' i have the motivation, but im going to university to learn the skills''
'' as long as i try my hardest ill succeed''
'' im just as good as anybody else is, so im worth a chance!''
etc etc.

its about getting rid of the first set of mind sets, and learnin a few of the second set of mindsets, or taking a step foward to put these into place everyday.

that is what i mean by with a negative attitude, your not going to make anything of yourself. also for example.

say if at a interview the manager can read your mind. first persons thinking ''wow great oppurtunity im sure ill get on really well here and contribute alot to this company'' and the second person is thinking '' oh god if i get this job everyones gonna think im boring! this is too hard, if i get this job im gonna fuck it up''

who is the manager gonna hire?
believe it or not, people can tell by your body language, tone of voice, how u preasent yourself, and the words you choose wethher you belive in yourself and have a positive mind set.

so dont sell yaselfs short. and change your attitudes.
 
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