i used to think like you lifesnotfair, then i was bluntly told by someone who i now class as a good friend that they found my negativity really irritating. I didn't agree at first but then i realised despite how much i went on about being alone, and having no one, i was in fact pushing people away. So i made the effort to be more positive and gradually began to have more social contact, oh yeah and Prozac helped! Having a girlfriend won't ncessarily make things better, it'll only distract you for a while. We all wish we were dead at times and believe me i have tried, but in the end all that achieves is hurting the people who love us most, we all have someone, take care x