incomplete_person
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I have a lot of problems. I've been cooped up in my place since 1999. All I do is smoke pot all day. The only time I leave the house is to go get some more. I dropped out when I was 16 because I just couldn't take it any more. I was always quiet during school and a lot of people didn't understand why. For a long time I've had these problems that are like agoraphobia and depression, really bad anxiety... etc etc etc. I did get picked on a lot, but I also didn't get picked on sometimes too. I guess I feel like I am whining but deep down im just so tired of trying. The things I complain about seem endless. My friends werent the best sort of people so I stopped hanging around them a little bit after I had a bad reaction to laced marijuana at a party. That was the last party I went to... soon after that I dropped out. I didnt get my GED until I was 21. I don't work or anything... I just sit around all day sealed away from the world except for this little box. I tried to get a job one time but I chickened out when they asked for a second interview. I didnt understand why the first one wasnt good enough.
I dont know. It just keeps going. My life is full of all this garbage and yet I am so afraid of changing it because right now I am in a comfortable little bubble where no one can touch me for a long time. I dont really want to talk about it to anyone but I know I need help. I dont want to go to a doctor because a lot of doctors know absolutely nothing at all. I dont want to take medication because I dont want to get addicted to it, or take any of the more recent medication that has side effects of coma and/or death.
I don't like doctors. Am I out of luck?
I dont know. It just keeps going. My life is full of all this garbage and yet I am so afraid of changing it because right now I am in a comfortable little bubble where no one can touch me for a long time. I dont really want to talk about it to anyone but I know I need help. I dont want to go to a doctor because a lot of doctors know absolutely nothing at all. I dont want to take medication because I dont want to get addicted to it, or take any of the more recent medication that has side effects of coma and/or death.
I don't like doctors. Am I out of luck?