bigs
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For the past few days I had been doing better with phone calls. This is one thing that I really hate for the most part. I think many of you share that sentiment. Anyway, I have made 2 or 3 successful phone calls in the past 3 days with little anxiety and I thought that the anxiety may have been on the course of being reversed...
Until today when someone from my school calls to talk to me about financial aid. I answered confidently and then BAM, I feel anxiety coming on. Before she even finishes her first statement I can feel my breathing becoming more shallow. When it's my turn to talk I'm in full blown panic. I can barely utter any words without sounding like I'm crying or out of breath. I don't care about my reputation or being "judged" by her, I'm just so pissed at myself for apparently being so incompetent with the phone. I can't, for the life of me, figure out what's triggering this anxiety. I thought it was gone and then it just returned with no warning.
I can handle all the other shit that goes along with feeling anxious, the sweating, blushing, etc. I just hate when my voice trembles. If I could eliminate that one symptom I would be fine for my own purposes. Sometimes I want to rip my vocal cords out.
Until today when someone from my school calls to talk to me about financial aid. I answered confidently and then BAM, I feel anxiety coming on. Before she even finishes her first statement I can feel my breathing becoming more shallow. When it's my turn to talk I'm in full blown panic. I can barely utter any words without sounding like I'm crying or out of breath. I don't care about my reputation or being "judged" by her, I'm just so pissed at myself for apparently being so incompetent with the phone. I can't, for the life of me, figure out what's triggering this anxiety. I thought it was gone and then it just returned with no warning.
I can handle all the other shit that goes along with feeling anxious, the sweating, blushing, etc. I just hate when my voice trembles. If I could eliminate that one symptom I would be fine for my own purposes. Sometimes I want to rip my vocal cords out.