Almost 5 years ago, I made a post on this very issue but I just need somewhere to rant and for help.
I am now 22 year old and I haven't done much with my life. Anxiety and depression has crippled my motivation and ambition although I'm going back to school and am working.
These days however, I feel lonely and depressed. I'm naturally an introvert and prefer to be alone most of the times, although I do get urges to be social and go out. I have a handful of friends, most of whom hang out with other people I don't like or like to drink and go clubbing; activities which I prefer not to engage in. Most of the time I'm by myself, working and when I do go out I like to bike or go out to eat/watch a movie with a couple friends.
I started dating and lost my virginity this year. It didn';t end up well as I keep getting burned and flaked on by girls. I feel as if I'm too much of a nice guy and a bit clingy, but it's due to lack of experience which is understandable. I don't want to be tied down, but I feel like if I had a relationship, I'd be less lonely and would have somebody to spend time with. My confidence and motivation for girls has spiraled downhill ever since I've gotten essentially friendzoned 3 times in a row. I hesitate to even talk to girls or look them in the eye due to feelings of bitterness and mistrust. I know it'svery negative, but I just can't help it.
The thing is... I don't WANT a lot of friends, just people to hang out with more often I guess? I don't know why I feel this way; I like to be alone but feel lonely and depressed at times? Sometimes I'll get feelings of jealously towards others who have good social lives although I know they have a totally different personality than me...
I am now 22 year old and I haven't done much with my life. Anxiety and depression has crippled my motivation and ambition although I'm going back to school and am working.
These days however, I feel lonely and depressed. I'm naturally an introvert and prefer to be alone most of the times, although I do get urges to be social and go out. I have a handful of friends, most of whom hang out with other people I don't like or like to drink and go clubbing; activities which I prefer not to engage in. Most of the time I'm by myself, working and when I do go out I like to bike or go out to eat/watch a movie with a couple friends.
I started dating and lost my virginity this year. It didn';t end up well as I keep getting burned and flaked on by girls. I feel as if I'm too much of a nice guy and a bit clingy, but it's due to lack of experience which is understandable. I don't want to be tied down, but I feel like if I had a relationship, I'd be less lonely and would have somebody to spend time with. My confidence and motivation for girls has spiraled downhill ever since I've gotten essentially friendzoned 3 times in a row. I hesitate to even talk to girls or look them in the eye due to feelings of bitterness and mistrust. I know it'svery negative, but I just can't help it.
The thing is... I don't WANT a lot of friends, just people to hang out with more often I guess? I don't know why I feel this way; I like to be alone but feel lonely and depressed at times? Sometimes I'll get feelings of jealously towards others who have good social lives although I know they have a totally different personality than me...