I know most people have a really hard time talking in front of large groups of people but I get nervous with just about anything that has to do with talking. Its the worse case of anxiety I have ever heard of and its very embarrasing because no one understands it. I definitely dont understand it. And I cannot change get over it either.
These are the situations/places where my anxious feelings are most intense. I dont think I have ever heard anyone mention being anxious while doing half of these, which is why I think my case is one of the worst.
I get anxiety when:
-Speaking in front of a person. And I dont meant a group, I mean one single individual person. It can be a friend, a relative or whatever. I'll be talking and a few seconds later BAM! I feel my voice cracking and my lips trembling.
-Going into an office, building, store, or any other place that has people.
-Talking on the phone. Answering the phone or calling my friends. I can hardly do either...
-Walking in front of a group of people, especially at school.
-Being in a place with more than 4 people. Any place. Any people.
-Saying "Here" when they call roll.
-Taking photos. I cannot take picture. I literally start twitching (from my mouth) when I do. It happens out of no where. I try to be calm. I walk up to take a photo, like this week for work I had to get a new photo ID, and I will be okay but as soon as they say "Are you ready" or "Smile" I just start shaking! Most of pictures come out horrible because at the moment of the flash I am experiencing the most terrible fright...
-Reading outloud. I cannot even read a single word without getting the full blown anxiety symptons (shaky hands, legs, lips...sweaty hands...rapid heart beat...horrible negative thoughts...ect).
-Ordering meals at restaurants. I cant do it. I cant order from my car and I cant order directly when I am inside the place without getting my anxious feelings.
-Watching other people speak. Same thing. I might just be watching someone speak in public, and they could be doing a swell job but I will still freak out completely. I can hardly stand to watch.
-Playing any kind of games that involve speaking in front of people, even close friends. Games like scrabble or sharades are the worse....
....thats about it. Those are the situations where my anxious feelings come out that I think are pretty strange. Of course my worst anxious feelings come when I speak in front of a large group of people. Now a days I mostly run out of the place BEFORE even standing up to speak.
I also have this thing where I think I'm chocking just about every time I am eating. I'm pretty sure it comes from my anxiety. I'm not sure what the exact connection is but I get the same feelings when I am eating. Its like I just become very afraid of swallowing (because I fear chocking). I once stopped my food, midway in my throat, and could not for the life of me swallow. I couldnt spit it out or anything. It just stayed there for like 10 seconds while I was having a major panic attack inside. I was at a family gathering, surrounded by dozens of family members but no one noticed. I really thought I would choke to death.....
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Has anyone ever experienced these things before?
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Brown Eyes
[email protected]
These are the situations/places where my anxious feelings are most intense. I dont think I have ever heard anyone mention being anxious while doing half of these, which is why I think my case is one of the worst.
I get anxiety when:
-Speaking in front of a person. And I dont meant a group, I mean one single individual person. It can be a friend, a relative or whatever. I'll be talking and a few seconds later BAM! I feel my voice cracking and my lips trembling.
-Going into an office, building, store, or any other place that has people.
-Talking on the phone. Answering the phone or calling my friends. I can hardly do either...
-Walking in front of a group of people, especially at school.
-Being in a place with more than 4 people. Any place. Any people.
-Saying "Here" when they call roll.
-Taking photos. I cannot take picture. I literally start twitching (from my mouth) when I do. It happens out of no where. I try to be calm. I walk up to take a photo, like this week for work I had to get a new photo ID, and I will be okay but as soon as they say "Are you ready" or "Smile" I just start shaking! Most of pictures come out horrible because at the moment of the flash I am experiencing the most terrible fright...
-Reading outloud. I cannot even read a single word without getting the full blown anxiety symptons (shaky hands, legs, lips...sweaty hands...rapid heart beat...horrible negative thoughts...ect).
-Ordering meals at restaurants. I cant do it. I cant order from my car and I cant order directly when I am inside the place without getting my anxious feelings.
-Watching other people speak. Same thing. I might just be watching someone speak in public, and they could be doing a swell job but I will still freak out completely. I can hardly stand to watch.
-Playing any kind of games that involve speaking in front of people, even close friends. Games like scrabble or sharades are the worse....
....thats about it. Those are the situations where my anxious feelings come out that I think are pretty strange. Of course my worst anxious feelings come when I speak in front of a large group of people. Now a days I mostly run out of the place BEFORE even standing up to speak.
I also have this thing where I think I'm chocking just about every time I am eating. I'm pretty sure it comes from my anxiety. I'm not sure what the exact connection is but I get the same feelings when I am eating. Its like I just become very afraid of swallowing (because I fear chocking). I once stopped my food, midway in my throat, and could not for the life of me swallow. I couldnt spit it out or anything. It just stayed there for like 10 seconds while I was having a major panic attack inside. I was at a family gathering, surrounded by dozens of family members but no one noticed. I really thought I would choke to death.....
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Has anyone ever experienced these things before?
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Brown Eyes
[email protected]