It started a few years ago when I was very worried about a lot of things especially in the army when I had to be careful not to lose stuff. Then I started having the habit of checking and worrying and fearing about bad things happening. But now I am in college and its not as bad but now I really have this crazy thinking which I think nobody ever has. It started from 1st year that I was always tensed up when trouble comes and it will be solved in the end ONLY when I tense up my eye muscels and neck muscles and head muscels. And every time something bad happens I always tense up my eyes, my neck muscles and head muscles. Doing this all the time for over a year made me really believe that by doing these actions, my problems could be solved and from experience, doing these actions while bad moments came always solved them. However, now I am experiencing side effects from these actions and feeling very tired my eye muscles are deteriorating badly and I am losing a lot of hair. I really want to stop doing these actions but its so difficult to STOP. I tried stopping them once and relaxing but I had an accident while skiing on that day which even mroe enforces this behaviour that bad things will happen if I relax. I already seen the school psychologist and it got even worst. So i would like to know whether its OCD or whether its serious. I would like a fast reply. Its really haunting me. Its the worst thing in my life. I would seriously rather get depression than this PHOBIA to relax disorder. Someone please explain what is happening and why its so difficult to get out of this.