Apple Strudel
Well-known member
But I can't drop out
I will be stranded and penniless and probably living on the streets or in my mum's house suffering or whatever, but I feel so god damn miserable day by day.
I am getting older and I missed out lots of social life and i'm not enjoying my school or work one bit. I can't do a god damn thing except to continue till my misery ends or perhaps because I am taking a certificate that's not even called a diploma and i'm working in retail and for your info, i'm 22! I have a few GCSE's but because I wanted to enter into this stupid local college, I took up this private certificate and paid a few K's for it and now I didn't want to go there anymore because i'm running out of time, I feel so stuck and small for now till the next Mar when I finally graduate but I don't even know if I still have the motivation to study for this cert's examinations anymore.
I see people studying in universities and living the dorm life and here I am, stuck in a small miserable private school + work. I am neither rich nor am I good at studies so getting to a local uni is out of question. A private uni costs way too much and add to that, I suck at keeping a job that pays above minimum wage.
Trust me, I wanted to get out of retail but I suck at work so I get fired often and most of the time, I feel so stupid, even now in retail, people that are younger than me kept asking me how am I feeling in the job because they see that I am nervous and suck at it.
I haven't been in a relationship and my one and only friend is a recluse herself. (Sucks isn't it)
I feel like my whole life is falling apart and i'm also racking up bills for my meds to help cope with work (oh, the burden)
I feel like a total loser and I avoid most people because they never experience the loserish life I have now since most of them are in universities, working in office jobs, travelling, having fun while i'm stuck here feeling miserable with my life.
I will be stranded and penniless and probably living on the streets or in my mum's house suffering or whatever, but I feel so god damn miserable day by day.
I am getting older and I missed out lots of social life and i'm not enjoying my school or work one bit. I can't do a god damn thing except to continue till my misery ends or perhaps because I am taking a certificate that's not even called a diploma and i'm working in retail and for your info, i'm 22! I have a few GCSE's but because I wanted to enter into this stupid local college, I took up this private certificate and paid a few K's for it and now I didn't want to go there anymore because i'm running out of time, I feel so stuck and small for now till the next Mar when I finally graduate but I don't even know if I still have the motivation to study for this cert's examinations anymore.
I see people studying in universities and living the dorm life and here I am, stuck in a small miserable private school + work. I am neither rich nor am I good at studies so getting to a local uni is out of question. A private uni costs way too much and add to that, I suck at keeping a job that pays above minimum wage.
Trust me, I wanted to get out of retail but I suck at work so I get fired often and most of the time, I feel so stupid, even now in retail, people that are younger than me kept asking me how am I feeling in the job because they see that I am nervous and suck at it.
I haven't been in a relationship and my one and only friend is a recluse herself. (Sucks isn't it)
I feel like my whole life is falling apart and i'm also racking up bills for my meds to help cope with work (oh, the burden)
I feel like a total loser and I avoid most people because they never experience the loserish life I have now since most of them are in universities, working in office jobs, travelling, having fun while i'm stuck here feeling miserable with my life.